A warm sunray fill the room. He feel the warmness of sulight touch his face. He try to open his eyes and in the same time his hand touch his bed other side.
"Babe..." He whisper his beloved name. Silence greet him. He open his eyes wider as soon as he realise that he was by himself.
"Sica-ah..." Jay shouted Sica name just hoping that she will popped out from bathroom. He walk toward bathroom to found an empty room. "Where have you been, babe?" Then he realise, all her belonging there nowhere to be found.
He startle by sudden ringing phone. He take a look.
Incoming Call From My Buddy Fany.
"Yah What you did again now?" Fany shout at him. "Sica back here in tears and packing to back to Seoul. She not even waiting for me."
"I...I don't know." Jay stuttered. "Everything just fine last night. I thought everything was back to normal again."
"Ahh Mwolla..." Fany take a deep breath. "She keep saying that you cheat on her. Where are you? We need to talk."
"See you in coffee house. I'll be there in 15 minutes." Jay hung up.
"Sica-ah what happen? Did I do something wrong last night?" Both of his hand cover his face as he scream out his confusing.
Silence filling the air around them as both drown in their own thought.
"Jay...tell me what happen last year." Fany hold his hand and look deep in his eyes. "You know that you always can lean on me. We know each other for a long time."
"Promise that you will never judge us. Promise that you will never blame her for anything that I'll tell you." His eyes fill with hopes that his best friend will be a listener without any judgement.
"Us? Her?" Fany looks so confused.
Jay nodded. "Me and SooYoung..."
That night we have Boys Night Out as I cancelled my date with Sica. We really have fun at club. Chansung, WooYoung and Nichkhun were totally knock out so Taec, Junsu and Junho struggle to bring them to our van.
"Hyung...you can walk by yourself right?" Taec gaze at me since I'm also half drunk. I'm still at our table.
"Yah I'm Park Jaebeom. 2PM Cool Leader. I can back to our dorm by myself. Just go bring them home." Taec just nodded and walk out from our private room.
I continue to drink after they left. I was in my way when I heard a familiar voice.
"Yah don't touch me." She struggle to push two boys who try to kiss her.
"Don't act so almighty here. You wanna have fun then this is fan" the taller guys push her to wall as I realise she is...
"Yah get your hands off her." I push that guy to the floor. "Soo-ah, are you okay?" She hold my hand tightly.
I look at those guys. "Go away or you want me to report that both of you try to rape SNSD SooYoung?"
Both the guys just walk away. I felt that SooYoung hold are loosing. Before I realise she was fell to the floor.
"SooYoung...Soo-ah" I patted her face to wake her up but still nothing. My head also felt so dizzy then I decide to bring her to hotel.
I laid SooYoung in bed as I sit backfacing her. Suddenly she woke up.
"Jay Baby..." she grinned at me.
"Soo-ah.. You wake already?" She just smile at me weirdly.
Then I realise that she had a pill in her hand. "Fuck...that guys give you drug."
I got up and grab a wet towel to make SooYoung come to her sense. As I turn around, I was shocked by my sight. She was already took off her jacket and was left her with tank top and mini skirt that reveal her hot body.
"Oppa why is so hot here?" She whined as she try to took off her top. I running to stop her.
"Here let me wipe your face." I wiped her face with wet towel when suddenly she pinned me onto the bed and climb on top of me.
"SooYoung...what are you doing? You still on drug" I stuttered as I'm also half drunk and can't think straight anymore.
"Yah Park Jaebeom. I hate you." She start to cry on my chest. "You idiot. You don't know how much you make my life miserable. I tried to forget you but why you're here again." Her tears wet my shirt.
I lift her and hugged her. "Shhh...Soo-ah Mianhe...Cheongmal mianhe..."
SooYoung look deep in my eyes as she start to kiss me. I try to push her but still my drunk state just can't resist her as I start to kiss her back. Their tongues started to interact with each other and Jay reached under SooYoung's shirt.
As they realise that was too late. The deeds already done.
*Ends of Flashback*
"It was a mistake. Then as we decide to keep it's a secret between us and pretend that never happen." Jay take a deep breath. "But still I can't face Sica after what I did so I keep avoiding her. I never mean to cheat on her."
"Why don't you tell her the truth? Why you keep it in silence and left her hanging there?"
"I'm on my way to tell her when Soo want to meet me. That day change our life as I know she's pregnant with my son." Jay hold his tears remembering that day. "It hurts me but still I'm blissful knowing my son. After JYP and LSM know about her pregnancy, they told us to abort him but we just object. Even it was a mistake but still he is our son. Thre's no way we want to kill him. Then I 'm be giving a choice, abort it or leave."
Fany tears rolled down as she realise fate really cruel to them. "Then what happen after you leave? As we know SooYoung don't have a baby with her? We totally don't know."
"Remember when SooYoung been warded for a month after she fell off? And none of you can visit her." Fany just nodded. "She call me before she passed out on the way to hospital. She told me she sorry to not take care of our baby. We just lucky hearing that our baby safe so I'm fly back to Seoul to be with her. " His tears roll down.
"But fate really cruel to her. To us. Her parents had already sign the abortion form before I'm there and she still in her unconcious state." Jay sobbing. "Your company lie to her parents that she's been raped. That's why they decide to abort our son. She was fourth month pregnant at that time."
Fany crying so hard hearing what SooYoung go through. "We really don't know."
"It's already late when I'm reach there. Her parents totally regret after knowing that she's pregnant with my son and we decide to keep him. SooYoung was really trauma back then. There's never a day without her tears. She crying all the time even in her sleep. That when she started to get her nightmare every single night." Jay look away remembered how SooYoung screaming in her sleep every night.
"No wonder she always wake up in middle of night and crying. when we ask she just said nothing. Now I know." Fany crying again.
"That's why I can't leave her even when the baby is no longer around. She endure so much pain because of me. I know she look so much better now but deep inside her it still killing her every single day. She always try to make me to leave her and back to my love but I can't." Jay wiped his tears. "Life was already so cruel to her. I can't be another cruel thing that happen in her life."
"But still you don't love her right? It's not fair to her and Sica, Jay. She will understand if you want to be with Sica." Fany try to justify his action.
"She will but it will kill her. I just know." Jay look at Fany and stood up. "Sorry to break your friend's heart but I've bring a lot more grief to your sister that I have to make amend."
He walk away and turn. "Tell Sica what happen last night was another mistake, as do our love..."
Fany tears roll again. "Jay-ah, I know you love her so much and yet you feel responsible to what happen to SooYoung. Believe me there's is one day in future when SooYoung found her strength and you can be together again with Sica. So don't ever give up and please don't ever tell that your love to Sica is a mistake."
Jay nodded and walk away...
"Sica-ah, that time will come when everthing back to their place. I promise you." Fany talk to herself with tears.
A/N: Huhuhuhu SooYoung life is so pitiful that's why Jay can't left her. Not till she left him.
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