It wasn’t that long ago when I first met you but it feels like I’ve been with you forever. I haven’t felt the way you made me feel in quite a while, the happiness and the feeling of being wanted gave me warmth that can’t be replaced. Now, it went by way too fast for me. I’m still in love with you, I didn’t want to but they made me do it. We didn’t speak of our relationship that’s why they were ignorant. Please don’t leave me, I’m still lying on our couch and staring at the door begging God to make you step into the room. Every time I think about what we had and what we could’ve had makes my heart hurt and I punch something. I know I wasn’t the best boyfriend, the most romantic, or easy to deal with but I still care about us. Sohyun, I love you.

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You took my heart and threw it on the ground, making it shatter. One part of me hates you to the core, another part wants to cry so that eventually I shrivel up, but finally the last one loves you more than before. I can’t believe I’m in love with you still; every picture in my mind has you in it. As if I can’t imagine my life without you anymore. I want to coax my heart out of these feelings but it’s too hard I have to ignore you completely. I deleted your number, all of our pictures, and put away all of the things you had given me because I still can’t bear to part with them. I thought you were sweet and caring only to me, but turns out you’re like that with all girls. The only thing I do now is lay on my bed and let the crying part take over. I don’t see anyone else, they try to see me but I hate it when they pity me. I can’t help it, I’m still in love with you Ilhoon.