Chapter 1

Jonghyun stared into the bathroom mirror. He was trying to concentrate on brushing his teeth, but instead found himself looking at the reflection of the cat-like eyes of Kim Kibum, who was standing (maybe more or less slouching and in the middle of a random dance) next to him doing the same. Jonghyun smiled widely, watching as Key sang some English song that he did not recognize. It was late at night and the two boys were both getting ready to go to bed, after Jonghyun had convinced Key to stay up with him to watch yet another horror movie.

 

“Key you’re getting toothpaste everywhere, plus it sounds like you’re shouting gibberish and the other members are trying to sleep”

 

Key laughed loudly and spit into the sink, finishing the task and setting his toothbrush aside. “Just because I am more educated and I can actually speak English doesn’t mean I am shouting gibberish.” The younger boy scrunched up his nose and conveniently switched back to Korean, a language that both of them could understand.

 

Jonghyun finished as well and laughed at Key’s sarcastic tone when he suddenly changed his mind. “Speak in English for me.” The random command suddenly hung in the air, somewhat of an awkward silence following.

 

“Eh?” Key let out a forced and dramatic sigh (accompanied by a wide smile of course) “You’re such a weirdo Jjong”

 

Jonghyun smiled at the nickname. “Please? It’s kind of cool to hear you sound so different.” Jonghyun put on his best “puppy look” that he could, knowing full well that the fact he was very tired at the moment only worked towards his advantage.

 

Key pursed his lips at this, his whole body giving in with a sigh. Jonghyun knew that Key could never resist that face.

 

“I don’t really understand why you want me to speak in English but here you go, Happy Jonghyun? I don’t know what to talk about though. . .” The foreign language flowed out of Key’s mouth without too much effort. He continued long after Jonghyun completely lost interest in trying to figure out what exactly the other was saying because he knew that he would have no success.

            Instead Jonghyun strangely found himself staring directly at Key’s lips.

They looked incredibly soft, he would bet anything that they felt even softer than satin, and they were a perfect shade of rosy pink. After he noticed this it was impossible to look away. Key’s heart shaped lips moved strangely as the younger boy formed the English words, each foreign syllable sounding unique and new. Jonghyun noticed that Key’s voice seemed slightly deeper when he was speaking English . . . like he was concentrating on sounding correct and losing the real pitch of his voice with it. But Jonghyun decided that he could still hear Key in that strange language, his accent slightly noticeable but sounding . . . just darn cute, adding little “r” sounds in words that he assumed didn’t need them. Jonghyun decided it made him sound like a cute little kid . . . he liked it. Yet at the same time the strange way his lips were moving . . . for whatever reason with English words Key’s lips made such different shapes and expressions . . . it was rather exciting to watch.

 

“YAH! Are you even listening to me rambling here?” Key said this loudly, putting one hand on his hip and waving the other in front of Jonghyun’s eyes, a pout stuck on the younger boys face. “What are even you staring at? And why do you have that ridiculous smile on your face?” This was phrased in Korean, obviously meant to get a message through to the other boy but he was paying no attention at all.

 

“Jjong you look like an idiot right now.” More of those damned English syllables.

             God that sounded so sexy. . .

Jonghyun had no idea what Key had just said to him but that was all it took for all reason to completely fly out of his head. With a grunt he grabbed Key’s chin with one hand and tilted it downward forcibly, taking a moment to curse at the fact that the younger boy was still taller than him. He ignored the way Key’s eyes widened and how his eyebrows went to disappear underneath his bangs. Quickly, Jonghyun crashed his lips onto Key’s soft pink ones without a second thought, wishing that the boy was still moving his lips around those strange English words. He kissed Key deeply, his arms wrapping around the boy’s small frame and one hand reaching up to run through Key’s soft hair. He slowly lowered both of their bodies to the bathroom floor, kneeling over top of Key and completely getting lost in the intense heat of their kiss.

 

After about 30 seconds of that, Jonghyun broke apart from Key, breathing impossibly hard and his heart leaping up into his throat.

 

Key was breathing hard as well, his face burning and looking redder than a tomato. The younger boy’s cat-like eyes were open wide and staring at the space past Jonghyun’s face, refusing to make eye contact.

 

Wait. . . Jonghyun moved so he was no longer on top of the younger boy, realization slowly hitting him, taking much longer than it should have because he was so tired.

 

Shit

 

Shit shit shit shit shit shit!

 

Jonghyun what the hell did you just do.

 

The older boy panicked, his mind racing faster than the speed of light, no complete thoughts having time to form. All he knew was that he had just kissed Kim Kibum, his best friend.

 

Also the man he had been trying to confess to for many years.

 

Other than the two boys’ heavy panting, the room was completely silent. Oh my god Jonghyun, you just ruined your relationship with your best friend in the entire world . . . but those damn lips just looked to kissable.

 

Shit.

 

Another awkward minute passed as Jonghyun hopelessly argued with himself in his head.

 

“. . . Key” The younger boy jumped at the sound of his name being called.

 

“W-w-what?”  His cheeks had at least faded down to a very bright pink now.

 

Cute.

               “Key . . . I” He stopped awkwardly and coughed, rubbing his hand through his hair. “I’m sorry. . . I don’t know-“

            “You. . .” Key suddenly pointed his hand out at the older boy in accusation. His voice was shaky and high-pitched. “You meant that kiss didn’t you?” An overwhelming sense of fear tinted the boy’s voice.

        “I’m sorry. We can pretend it didn’t happen. I just . . . the way you lips were moving and it just looked so . . . and I just couldn’t take it anymore. . .” Jonghyun winced as he felt the words tumble out of his mouth, burying himself deeper in his own grave when he practically confessed.

        As he finished his sentence Jonghyun suddenly looked up from where his eyes had been fixed on a floor tile because he heard a quiet noise. A small little sniffle. . .

        Oh my god I made him cry. . .

        Key’s eyes were wet with tears, threatening to overflow at any second. And that expression absolutely killed Jonghyun, he felt guiltier than he ever had in his entire life. Jonghyun panicked, a feeling worse than anything clutching at his heart, as he started apologizing and trying to comfort him in any way possible, but nothing seemed to come out right

        Key’s beautiful eyes finally looked up to meet Jonghyun’s, his eyebrows curving downwards slightly and pulling together, a pained expression on his face.

        “Jjong you are the biggest idiot in the entire world.” The younger boy pushed at Jonghyun’s chest lightly but still managed to push him over. Jonghyun felt tears spill over as Key said this, pain forcing its way into his face even though he tried his best to hide it. With that Key sighed loudly and his body crumpled a little, head pointed downwards as he brushed away the tears that had now fallen to his cheeks with the palms of his hands. Finally the boy placed his hands to cover his mouth, slowly trying to quiet down his gasps for air as he started crying harder.

        Key then mumbled something quietly, noticing when Jonghyun made no response; he was continuing to stare at the floor trying to piece together what he could do now.

        His hands had muffled the sound and Jonghyun couldn’t quite make out what he had said.

        “Key I can’t understand you” Jonghyun’s own voice was now shaking horribly with absolute fear and sadness.

        Key mumbled something again, louder but completely muffled by his hands and sobbing. Jonghyun felt his heart break into a million pieces at the sight of Key looking so vulnerable.

        “I love you.” Key finally took his hands away from his face and stared at the older boy, quiet little gasps still coming from his mouth as he tried stop crying. Jonghyun felt his head snap up so fast it hurt his neck. Did I just hear that?

        Complete silence filled the room.

        “I love you, you idiot. I always have.” Key sighed loudly and it was clear he had been trying to hold back that confession for a very long time. “I never knew you liked me back, I was so afraid to lose you as a friend so I never said anything . . . I thought you were just joking around the whole time and doing all that stuff for the fans.”

        Key lunged forward and kissed Jonghyun softly, and very slowly. His arms twisting around Jonghyun’s waist and a hand clutching at the older boy’s shirt. “I love you, I love you, I love you.” Key started rambling as fast as possible, just repeating the same thing over and over and still crying.

        “Oh my god” Jonghyun said it loudly, also wrapping his arms around Key’s waist and hugging him tightly. Jonghyun’s brain struggled to keep up with the events that were now unfolding. All he knew was that a confessing and crying Key was in his arms.

        With that all reason flew out of his head for the second time in nearly 5 minutes.

        Jonghyun pushed the younger boy over and onto his back, hovering over him and placing his hands on either side of Key’s head. “I meant everything I ever said Key, every time we joked about being married, every time we laughed about the thought of us dating. All of it, every touch, whisper, or song I sang to you. I always meant it all.” Jonghyun felt the corners of his mouth twitch into a huge smile, and after a moment Key giggled at his expression.

        “Aish! It seriously took you this long to confess to me?” Key rolled his eyes and smiled, the mood in the room instantly changing. “You look like an excited puppy Jjong.” Key laughed at Jonghyun’s wide smile.

        “You know . . . the other members are asleep. We shouldn’t wake them up with all this loudness” Jonghyun’s smile turned into his characteristic smirk and he stuck his tongue out at Key.

        With that, Jonghyun bent down and started kissing and biting at Key’s neck, one hand placed over the boy’s hip and the other on his chest. He smirked once again as Key let out a loud and surprised yelp.

        “Shhh” The older boy scolded but bit him once again, causing Key to have the same reaction.

        “Yah you’re practically making a meal out of me!” Key whimpered.

        “Sorry, I’m hungry” Jonghyun lied, very satisfied with the way Key’s face was tinted pink once again. Then everything was a blur of kisses, loud breathing, and grabbing hands, each boy giggling in between as they discovered ticklish spots on their necks and collar bones. Jonghyun vaguely noticed that they were now standing. . .maybe even walking someplace, shuffling feet on the floor.

          In an instant, without either of the boys realizing it, they had somehow made it into the bedroom that the two boys shared. Key felt his legs bump against the frame of Jonghyun’s bed, which happened to be on the opposite side of the room as his own.

           With that Key looked down at Jonghyun, eyebrows raised and a visible blush, despite the dark, was present on his face. “Jjong are we. . .?” His voice instantly trailed off nervously, taking big gasps for air. The younger boy shifted his eyes down to the bed and bit his lip, emphasizing his point and making sure the other knew what he was asking.

            Jonghyun felt his eyes widen and he paused to think, slowing his breathing down and trailing his hands down Key’s back. To think all this started because of those strange english words. I want to hear his voice again, maybe I should learn English. . .I guess I owe it at least that much if it brought me to this.  Jonghyun smirked and suddenly remembered a few words in English that he could understand.

           “Come on baby.” the simple phrase turned into a growl and Jonghyun found himself grabbing the collar of Key’s shirt and using it to force the younger boy down onto the bed.

           Key squeaked as he did this, giggling loudly shortly afterwards and immediately using his hands to tug at the hem of Jonghyun’s shirt. “Ok Honey!”

 

A.N: My first SHINee fic! I hope you enjoyed it, I would GREATLY apprieciate any comments you have to offer! I apoligize if there are any mistakes, I am brand new to this website and the formatting is taking some getting used to. . .Anyway I hope you liked this!