Kris OC Jaejoong Exo-m Tao Luhan Yamapi angst
Hurting her was the last thing Kris wanted yet that is what he did, he wants to be forgiven but sometimes its too late to say sorry, especially when someone else promises to take better care of her than he ever did, that person being the person he respects and his friend, Kim Jaejoong.
Why does seeing her smile hurt me so. Does being away from me make her that happy? I want to hug her like the rest but my body has become stiff, my chest hurts, I hold back the tears inside for a man shouldn’t cry. I cant control the loneliness that I feel, everyday I try to fight it but I still miss her so, Is this how our love will end. I don’t want to feel pain anymore. I’m the reason we are like this.
I didnt mean it when I said I was tired of you. I didnt mean it when I said you annoyed me when you call because you miss me.
“You cant continue like this any more, you’re not conscious about anything anymore.”
Everything stopped when she left, I’m blind and deaf to all around me. I cant breath, day and night I scream inside. Every time I close my eyes, I feel the memories of us fading and that scares me to death. Whatever I did, whoever I met: I still thought of her. I dont want to forget about her. I want her to come back to me.
Looking at the cold empty side of our bed, I wonder, if I had held her back that night, would she be here laying next to me? If I had said I was sorry would things be different?
I cant recover from this state of mind. I'll love her for the rest of my life, I'll wait for her like the crazy person I am.
If i'd known this would happen, I would've never let her go.
“If you keep thinking of her, you'll only be hurting yourself. I’m saying this cause I care.”
My thoughts of her occupy me for hours and I cant get anything done.
I’m sorry for everything just come back to me.
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