Hyukjae insisted to take donghae home since there was no reason for him to stay at the hospital. He was out of dangerous, so he wanted donghae to be home with him instead of taking him back to mokpo and live with his mom. He already persuade donghae's mom to let donghae stay with him. It was better for donghae to stay in seoul than in mokpo. They had all the facility and best hospital here. So his mom agreed since he trusted hyukjae so much.

But the managers and the company were concerned about who will taking care of him since the boys schedules were frantic. Hyukjae without doubt offered himself. He wanted to take a break from all his activities. But the company said no. Hyukjae didn't think twice that he just told them that he would quit. Loosing Hyukjae would be a big blow as he was the lead dancer. So the company granted his wish to take a break for awhile, but the tour. Hyukjae agreed since the tour would only took 1 - 2 days so he would still have lots of time to taka care of hae.

Hyukjae took donghae to his new house outside seoul. It was not so big but very cozy one to live. It has garden and backyard and a small pool and everything. He really took care of donghae. He did everything for him most of the time when he had no tour schedule. He also hired few therapists for donghae so everything would be comfortable for him. He loved him that much that everything he did was never a burden. He took him to the hospital regularly for check ups, he watched and learned carefully all those therapist did so he could do it by himself just in case hae need it. He bathed him, feed him, taking him around the garden, or just sat by the pool. Hyukjae never worried about any interuption from the press or the fans as no one knows where they were except the members. Everything was well organized.

"Hyukjae-ssi."

A tall man greet him. He was one of donghae's therapist, Mr. Chen, he's chinese. Hyukjae stood up and asked him to sit. They were in the kitchen.

"Hyukjae-ssi, I've done my theraphy session with donghae-ssi just now." Mr Chen said, his eyes were at donghae who sat in the living room. 

"How's donghae doing, Mr Chen?" Hyukjae looked directly into the man's eyes and longing for a good answer.

"Everything is well." He answered. "Donghae-ssi is still very young and he has better chances to recover. Let's hope for the best."

"Mr Chen, I'm counting on you. Please help uri Donghae." Hyukjae bowed a bit toward the man. "I'm counting on you. PLease help my Hae..."

Mr Chen just smiled and bowed back. Somehow he felt sad seeing both men. They were still young but unfortunate. They had all the money in the world and fame but ended up like this. But Mr Chen was content to see how strong the bonding between the two. He had to admit that Hyukjae was very determined to take care of Donghae. He always talked to him as if he was... alive. Well, Donghae was neither dead or alive, but he never responded to anything. But yet lovingly Hyukjae stayed with him, cared for him, happily. Just talking, and laughing, read stories for him. He stayed with him at night to make sure he had a good sleep, and whenever donghae woke up in the middle of the night and started to mumble things or made "hisshh" sound incoherently, Hyukjae would just holding him, told him everything would be ok and he will stayed until donghae closed his eyes and sleep.

Mr Chen saw all that and he just wished he could be more helpful. It has been 2 weeks now, but donghae hadn't showed any sign of recovering. But seeing Hyukjae's determination it made him wanted to try his best to help donghae.

Hyukjae was determined alright. He was not showing sign of loosing hope in front of everyone, especially in front of Donghae. But he just couldn't bear it once he was alone. Just like tonight, and the night before, and the night before that. He went to take a shower right after putting donghae to bed. He turned the shower on and as the cold water pouring his body, his tears were also streaming down.

He cried alone.

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"I'm home, Hae. How are you doing today?" Hyukjae brushed donghae's fringe aside and smile. He just got back from a tour round. He had to leave Donghae for 2 days and he told Leeteuk hyung that he wanted to come home early before the rest of the member. 

"I Brought you something back." He said. " But let me take a quick shower and then I'll show you, ok?"

Hyukjae stared at Donghae. Of course he didn't nod or smile or.. something.  Hyukjae bit his lips and went to his room. He showered real quick and got back to the living room.

Hyukjae lifted Donghae from his wheelchair and put him on the sofa.

"Look what I've brought home." He said as he pulled out lots of papers from his bags. They were hand banners.

"These were from our fans. The Eunhae shipper. Your fans mostly. See?" Hyukjae lifted the handbanner to show donghae. "This one is wishing you well. This one is saying that ELF misses you so much. This one is actually a marriage proposal.."

Hyukjae stared at the handbanner and chuckled, marriage proposal, to my hae? Let's get rid of that...

" I Also bring back our video from the tour. Let's watch this oke?" Hyukjae walked toward the home theather set and put the dvd on. then sat next to donghae.

"Come here." He said as he pulled donghae to his arm. Donghae's head fell gently against his chest. He cuddled him and kissed his forehead.

"How are you doing, Hae-ah? " Hyukjae wishpered. He kept showering donghae with loving kisses and gently on his's hair. "I miss you so much."

Hyukjae brushed his finger down to Hae's cheeck as they watched  the concert.

"Hae, do you remember ELF? See how much they love you? Those handbanners were mostly for you." Said Hyukjae. "They were all so sweet. See the sapphire blue ocean!"  

"Do you remember the saphhire blue ocean, hae-ah? We always have goosebumps everytime we're inside one. It's like our home, right hae? It's always SJ and ELF. Do you miss swimming in our sapphire blue ocean? you and I, conquer all."

Hyukjae gently Donghae's rose cheek. But then he stopped as he felt something. It felt.. Wet. Hyukjae stared at his finger with widen eyes.

"Donghae, you're crying?" Hyukjae cupped Donghae's face. He was really crying. The tears rushing down to his rose cheeks. "You understand everything that I say, did you?"

Donghae didn't make any respond but blink his eyes. It was enough for hyukjae to understand. Hae was not completely lost. He was there, just waiting to emerge. Hyukjae hold him tightly. "I feel you, I know you're coming back. I love you.."

There's always hope..

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*ailovesfishy : correction made! thanks dear.. ^_^