I didn’t know that becoming an idol is this hard. Trust me, if you don’t have the will, you’ll never be able to stand even a week of training. Since we are still teenagers, we were enrolled in school. Thus, we need to fulfill our obligations as a student and a trainee. Our school’s very cool. They have an auditorium open for all. We wake up around 6am to go to school. While on our way to school, our earphones never leave our ears. We listen to radio for new songs or usually, it depends on what our assigned task for that week. Like our first week, we were tasked to make a one minute dance routine of the song that they gave us so usually, for the week we will listen to that song to make our own choreography.
My classmates are very kind. Also, there are a lot of foreign students so the majority of the students in our school knows or probably understand English. We usually eat together during breaks and after eating I usually go to either the auditorium to rehearse the routine they’ve given us or at times, I go to the school’s rooftop to practice my vocals. I usually see the other trainees that has the same break and school as me practicing to and we give each other encouraging smiles.
After classes, My friends and I drop by the school’s library to study and finish our homework, projects, research or whatever it is that are for tomorrow. Then we’ll bid our goodbyes and Karen, Sam, Thy, JV and I would go to Cube Entertainment to start our training for that day.
We first have our fingerprints scanned to get an entry pass and after that, we’ll surrender our cellular devices since they aren’t allowed during trainings. After all, we can’t be distracted. Before training we usually swing by the cafeteria to get a meal card and eat dinner first. Since we have to be careful for our weight and since, we’ll be sweating a lot later, I usually just order fresh chicken salad.
Usually classes officially start at 6pm and ends around 10pm. Everyone has different schedules depending on your strengths and weaknesses in terms of performing. Also, being a trainee has 3 levels; preparation trainee, trainee, then the last one is debut trainee or you’ll be trained for debut. It’s strange though, when we asked on which level we are, they said that they didn’t know that we were a special case like Hyunseung who already went training for Big Bang, same for G.na before joining Cube, she’s about to belong to a girl group and like AJ who already debuted as a soloist. I’m not sure what they meant though, well maybe President told them to do that maybe because we were already shown in the mv of B2st even without proper training? I don’t know. Well, whatever it is, they said that like everyone else we just have to follow our schedule.
Since Cube provided us dorms, ours is just around the corner and it’s easier to go hope. However, for some, they’ll probably get home by midnight. Whenever I get home, I usually practice a little more. Recap the steps or memorize lyrics. After this, around 1am, I guess? Well, I reflect on the things that have happened today and I’ll write it all on the diaries given to us by Cube. Trust me, there are a lot of thing to write about starting from the time you wake up, and went to school and the trainings. It takes hours. I probably finish writing around 3am and that’s the official end of my day but of course I’ll thank God for all the things He has done for me and read the bible before going to sleep.
Every weekend, it’s a little bit different. Since we have those days dedicated to the practice, our mentors always prepare different schedules that are especially made for us. As for me, I usually spend the most of this time in singing lessons since I’m weak in that area. I’m scared of trying to reach a note and then fail so I’ll have to get rid of that habit to be able to step up to the next level. At times we’ll have a free time of about 3 hours. During those times, it’s either; I’ll go practice my singing more or dancing, write fan fictions (since it’s been a hobby of mine lately), doing projects, essays and other school works that are still to be finished, take up guitar lessons, or head to the yoga class and sometimes gym (but for girls, yoga class is recommended) but usually I take up more classes for the languages since I still don’t know Korean unlike other who need to know English, mandarin and Japanese. I want to learn Korean faster so I take extra classes Karen, Sam, JV and Thy do the same thing.
However the focus of our lessons during Saturdays is all about our character. It’s about building up our character. We have Character training/analysis, health education, sex education and at times, depression tests. I remember that President says that he don’t give a damn about how gifted we are. O.o He says that he thinks about us all of the same amount and that we are all equally special to him. It all depends on how much we pursue our dreams, how much we wanted to improve not for money of fame but for ourselves… for our dreams. He said that we all have that raw talent; potential... it depends on how much time, effort and passion we give to move up and go through the next level. He says that our character will be the ones who’ll bring us to the top or the ones that will pull us down so we must be careful to understand who we are and to keep the good things in us and change the bad things that we have as much as possible to be able to lead a positive outlook in life, to have friends in the industry and have healthy competitions with each other. He always thinks about us like a father who always backs up his children. He even makes time from his busy schedule just to see how everyone is doing and tell us motivational words such as these. I’m really blessed to be part of this family.
At least every week or two, we’ll go and do volunteer like cleaning, picking up garbage, pant trees, etc. At first I was like.. O.o…. what the?! But then it’s fun, since you’re doing it with everyone. It has always been like a bonding moment for us trainees since when we go for training, we’ll be so engulf with practicing and would be very busy to even have an idle chat with others. And every month, we’ll do much bigger charity works, like helping in orphanage, even performing during charity events. It’s really heartwarming when you see those kids smile at you and would tell you that they wanted to become someone like you. Even though we’re not yet artists these kids admire us and it motivates us to do better. Yoshi! I’ll strive even harder!!!