I can't hold it...

 

Today, I went to the coffee shop with my bestfriend. Many girl's bestfriend are girl too or inversely with men but not me... These days, I spend so much time with him, Lee Gi Kwang, that my feelings for him have changed... I think I'm in love...

  _ Eo? Are you alive ?, he asked shaking his hand ahead my face.

  _ Oh,!yes. Sorry, I was dreaming...

  _ What happend to my Hyo Sung ? Huh ? You're so pensive thoses days.

He laughted and look at me, with his smiling eyes.. How can someone stay stony to them ? He was gorgeous, I love everything on him. With his hair neathly groomed, his adorable and seductive voice and these lips... If only, you knew that I felt for you, that you're my only thought... You are my perfection !

  _ Are you going to look at me like that much longer ?, I asked little embarassed.

  _ Why ? Can't I look a such beautiful girl in front of me ?

That why I'm not telling anything... He sees me like his best friend but talk to me as a boyfriend, and he doesn't noticed it yet... I make me angry, he plays everyday with my heart... 

  _ Stop saying that, please...

  _ Okay, sorry! He smiled and ruffled my hair. Have you finished ? 

  _ Yep! Shall we go ?

  _ Yes, let's walk a little bit in the park, huh ?

  _ I'm not against it.

We stood up, letting all stuff on the table, he went to pay and we go out the mall to have a deep breath. There was a big silence, no one wanted talk. My familly know Gi Kwang well, my mom likes him so much and never stops talk about him, but she said me that we looked more a couple than friends. My friends told me the same... I wasn't suprised, I know him since our childhood, we have never been separated, and our entourage thought that we could be something more that just friends... I'd like to be, but I don't know if it is reciprocal, we haven't yet have a conversation about it, and even a serious conversation about love... If I tell that I felt for him, he could reject me, just think about this affraid me, then what about our relation ? We could fell incormfortable after that and maybe avoid each other... I won't it ! The problem is that Gi Kwang has lot of charms that he doesn't even know, many girl approached him, but when they declared to him, he declines them as gently as possible... Why ? I don't know, he is maybe already in love, his heart is might be already taken...

  _ Sit down, he said, putting is jacket on my knees. Argh... Why did you wear a skirt ?

  _ Because, the weather is good today ! I have to enjoy it.

  _ Yes, but it makes you so pretty! All guys are watchin you... I don't like it, he complains.

  _ Sorry if I'm too pretty for you, I smirked crossing arms. Any way, I wear a skirt at school too and you don't say anythings..

  _ It is not the same !

  _ Yes, it is. If you want, I can take it off here, see ?, I said hold my waist.

  _ NO! NO! It is ok, don't do that ! He screams frightened.

  _  Gi Kwang, you're so boyish ! I laughted.

He is always like this, a caring guy rather possessive but I think it's cute. We stayed here around one hour, the sun was seeting and the sky become darker. It was time to go home, and Gi Kwang accompagnied me to the bus stop. We waited few minutes before see the bus away. I go up, and say good bye to my friend throught the window. The bus begins to start and I turn back for look at him a second time, I saw next to him a girl who was familiar to me... Hyeon Ah ?! Gosh, not her... They seems have a nice discussion.. I have pretty jealous of her and I envied her in the same times. She had it all, she was beautiful, sexy outside and cute inside what pleased all men, she was tall, heathly, sporty and funny. She's smart and his family situation is quite good actually... When Gi Kwang start to frequent Hyeon Ah, people wondered if she hasn't me stolen him. I thought that too, and now I feel so jealous when I see her... What if he rejects such girls for her ? My heart will not cease hurts me... My world will be destroyed as never... And I don't know if I could face them.

The next day, I wanted see Gi Kwang and go out with him, but he said that he was busy and have an appointement. I say that it was okay... I decided to go alone to the mall. After shopping a bit, I go to the restaurant where I came with him the last day. I even stepped inside that he was sitting there with Hyeon Ah... Then, when he perceived me, he had a shoking expression, mine should certainly be blankly at this second... I clenched my fist, and turn back.. "Hyo Sung, don't get angry, don't beat him... Just go your way",  I told to myselft. Tears were about coming but I tried to prevent them... I run out the mall, took a deep breath when I heard him shout my name. Now, thoses tears flowed to me blushing eyes. I don't want him see or talk with him... I'm not in the mood, he spoiled my day. But I felt Gi Kwang grab my hand. I was in front of me now, not even trying to dry thoses infinite waters pearls and I look at him in eyes. How pitiful I may appear...

  _ You...

  _ I supposed that it is your so-called "appointement"... I smirked cutting him in the middle of his sentence.

  _ That not what you think !

  _ What I am supposed to believe ? Huh ? Tell me Gi Kwang ... 

  _ Why are are crying ? he asked.

  _ Don't ask me that please...

  _ Tell me, just..

  _ No...

  _ Hyo Sung, tell me ! he said firmly

  _ Why I am crying ? Why I am crying, I repeat a low.. You wan't to know why I am crying ?! I'm crying... Cause, I love you and you can't see it! I yelled it with all my heart. I suddenly felt my body become heavy, my heart too and I burnst into tears again... I'm crazy about you Gi Kwang, since few days... And it makes me insane to see you with her or just another girl. I'm sorry about not telling it before, but now I can't hold it, I cannot hide feelings... You're just too important to me ! So please, stop tea-

I couldn't have time to finish my phrase that he capture my lips.. I cried silently, why he continues to hurt me... Now what will happen, I waited for this instant all days that now I don't know what to do. I only closed my eyes to savor this kiss, this delicious kiss. I even let him deepen it, it was just to perfect. 

  _ Hyo Sung, my... Love, he softly said fixing my into eyes. Why did it took so long time ?

  _ Sorry, I can't stop crying, but you're... so mean...

  _ Forgive me, please. He just smiled. You know why I came here with her ? I wanted come here for bought you this, then he show me a bracelet, and I was about to purpose but I don't know what can I choose so I called her to help me a bit without thinking to find you here.. I don't love her, she's just a friend and it will never change. You're the more gorgeous thing on this earth that my eyes could touch, why would I look elsewhere ?

  _ I'm stupid, isn't it ? I asked feeling bad...

  _ You aren't, ok ?

His hands surround my cheeks which were blushing and burning... He pecked his enticing lip on mine, then one more time and crushed on me, his right hand hold my waist while the left caressing my hair, what a good sensation and I unconsiously seize his neck.. It wasn't like the first, this one was full of emotions and sentiments. For sure, I love him, it's just unimaginable !

  _ I love you... You're my Hyo Sung, you're mine !, he murmured in an honeyed voice..

I finally hugged him, hoping that he won't noticed that my heart jumped...

 

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