You're No Angel

Into Your World (너의 세상으로)
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Only One - BoA
 
 
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Narrator’s P.O.V:
 
 
Everything was blurry when Naeun opened her eyes in the morning.
 
Her head hurt a little as she slowly regained consciousness. She was lying down in a comfortable place. It was warm and… spongy.
 
*…Where the heck am I…?* Naeun squinted her eyes, trying to refocus. Suddenly, it dawned on her. She looked down to see herself sitting on top of her bed. She was in her room.
 
*Why am I in my bed…?*
 
Flashbacks of last night’s kiss flooded Naeun’s mind. That mindblowing, sensational feeling of Baekhyun’s soft, sweet lips being pressed down on hers in a needy—almost hungry—urge.
 
Naeun’s fingertips slowly came up to her lips as her fingers glided over them. She couldn’t have dreamt it. It was impossible, and it felt so real. Without thinking, her cheeks tinged pink.
 
She sat in silence, rethinking everything carefully. *Could it be… that Baekhyun oppa carried me back to my room afterwards?* It was a possibility, that was for sure.
 
Naeun broke out into a large beam. Happiness radiated from every end of her body. *I kissed Baekhyun. That means that Baekhyun likes me too, right?* She laughed like an idiot and grabbed her pillow, squealing in it and hugging it to her face in embarrassment.
 
*I’m so happy, I could die.* Naeun jumped out from her bed and twirled around. She was definitely on Cloud 9. Quickly, she checked the time and decided to take a shower before heading downstairs for breakfast.
 
In a flash, Naeun walked into her private bathroom, locked the door, and stripped off her clothes in a heap on the floor. She wasted no time and the shower, letting out a relaxed sigh when the warmness kissed her skin.
 
As the drops of water hit her head, the thoughts of Baekhyun kissing her again made her giggle in sheer happiness.
 
*Byun Baekhyun. Baekhyun oppa. My Baekhyunnie~* Naeun snickered. A gentle, loving smile took over her lips as she shyly bit down on them.
 
*This is just crazy.* She shook her head with a smile and proceeded to shampoo her hair.
 
Today was a good day.
 
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Naeun bounced downstairs with semi-damp hair a while after her shower. On her way to the last step, someone slung an arm around her neck. Alarmed, she turned around.
 
“Xiumin!” Her lips formed an ‘o’ shape. Xiumin just smirked at her, “You seem happier than usual, mei-mei. Any reason why?”
 
Naeun couldn’t contain her giddiness, so she merely flashed him a wide smile, “Secret!”
 
Xiumin’s face fell. “What? No! Tell me!” He protested.
 
“Uh-uh.” She shook her head and stuck out her tongue at him, skipping away.
 
“Huh… Weird…” Xiumin scratched his head as he monitored her from afar. *She’s not usually this playful…*
 
Just then, Tao came downstairs with Kai. The panda maknae tilted his head to one side and pointed at Xiumin’s dazed stupor, “What’s going on with gege?”
 
Kai furrowed his eyebrows and shrugged as he waved his face in front of the elder’s face, “Minseok hyung? Earth to Xiumin!”
 
Xiumin snapped out of it and slapped his hand away, surprised. “What?” He shook his head, “You and your earthling jokes. We’re not even on Earth, pabo.”
 
Kai took note of this and blinked in realization, “Oh. That’s right. I bet Naeun’s influencing me too much, with her human jokes and all.” He let out a chuckle.
 
“Speaking of mei-mei, what’s up with her?” Tao sleepily rubbed his eyes and looked straight ahead at Naeun. She had a little skip in her step and a prance in her walk. Every two minutes, she’d twirl and giggle secretively to herself.
 
“Huh. Maybe the EXO air has finally gotten to her. She looks cuckoo.” Kai studied her, his lips quirked in thought. Tao slapped his arm while giving Kai a dirty look.
 
“Wha—OW!” Kai rubbed his arm and pouted a bit. “Don’t talk bad about mei-mei!” He glared at him. Kai raised his hands up in defense and rolled his eyes, “Okay, okay. Sheesh.”
 
Xiumin didn’t pay attention to any of this and rubbed his chin in deep thought. *I wonder what’s up…*
 
Meanwhile, Lay looked up at Naeun with a slightly amused smile on his usually calm face. “Mei-mei, you look nice today.” *And happy, too.* He beamed at her.
 
Naeun looked up at him and giggled, “You think so?” She curled a piece of her hair behind her ear, “You’re such a charmer, Lay.” She joked, “But thank you. I think you look nice too.”
 
Lay—dressed in his white tank top and light blue pajama bottoms with clouds printed on them—blushed adorably. “Thanks mei-mei.” He mumbled shyly.
 
*Aww, too cute!* Naeun kindly smiled at him and continued to set the table. Suho quietly watched as he chopped he vegetables and smiled. *I’m happy she’s happy.*
 
Just then, Chanyeol and Chen appeared in the kitchen. Chanyeol was also in good spirits, while Chen had a headache.
 
“Hola amigos!” Chanyeol said loudly in a Spanish accent. Both Naeun and Suho gave him a confused look while Lay looked startled and almost dropped a spoon.
 
“Agggghhh, shut up.” Chen rubbed his temples and sat down on a chair close to the kitchen counter. He tiredly rested his head on it and let out an exhausted sigh.
 
Naeun slowly walked up to Chen and ducked down, matching her eye level to his. She glanced at him worriedly, “What’s the matter, oppa? Are you hurt anywhere?”
 
Chen slowly nodded his head, staring at her. “My head hurts because somebody started blasting their music and randomly started dancing in the morning, almost giving the rest of us a heart attack.” He narrowed his eyes at Lay, who blinked and sheepishly coughed, avoiding his gaze.
 
Naeun snickered and soothingly rubbed Chen’s head, “I’ll get an Advil for you. Just rest up for now.” Chen muttered, “Thanks, Naeun.” She smiled and scoured the cabinets for some medicine.
 
Finally, she found it, but it was on a high shelf. *Just a bit closer…* She went on her tiptoes to reach it, when at that moment, two figures reached for it at the same time. Naeun looked beside her to see Kris and Chanyeol reaching for it. Chanyeol was faster, however, and handed it to her.
 
“Oh, thanks, you two.” Naeun took it and tried with all her might to unscrew the lid, but it wouldn’t open. “Huh? Why isn’t it opening?”
 
Chanyeol crossed his arms and laughed defiantly at all 188cm of Kris, “Haha, Kreease! How does it feel to be beaten by someone shorter than you by a few centimetres?”
 
Kris rolled his eyes, “Immature. And just so you know, it’s Kris, not Kreeease. Pabo.” He shook his head and smoothly took the pill bottle, opening it with ease. “Oh! Thanks.” Naeun chimed and took the pills, filled a glass with water and gave it to Chen, who gulped it down.
 
“Aigoo. You’re so nice, Naeun-ah.” Suho ruffled her hair affectionately. She smiled in gratitude.
 
When she was about to put down some plates, Chanyeol grabbed her arm and pulled her away quickly. “Chanyeol oppa!” She squealed quietly, “What are you doing?!”
 
Chanyeol put a finger to his lips and winked, “Shh. I have to ask you something.” Naeun pursed her lips.
 
“So, did you take my advice yet? When are you gonna confess?” He studied her expression, “Unless… you already did?! That explains your happy mood!” He gasped.
 
“Of course I didn’t confess yet!” Naeun blurted out—a bit too loudly. She slapped a hand over but continued talking in a hushed manner, “Well… I don’t really know if it was a confession or not.”
 
By now, Chanyeol’s eyes were wide, urging her to go on.
 
“We… um… sort of… kissed, last night.” Her face became hot.
 
Chanyeol gaped at her, an incredulous grin spreading across his face rapidly, “You WHAT?!” Naeun hurriedly clamped his mouth shut with her hand, “Shhh!”
 
“Sorry.” He said in a muffled voice. She let out a sigh and pried her hand loose, “I don’t know how he’s gonna act.”
 
Chanyeol beamed, “It’s the perfect time to confess, then!” Naeun stared at him, “What?”
 
“He kissed you back, right? So that’s why you were in such a good mood! That means he likes you too! There’s no doubt about it!” He continued. “Confess today! I bet he’ll say yes!”
 
“I don’t know…”
 
“Better yet,” He ignored Naeun’s indecisiveness, “You should confess after breakfast! It’ll be fine!”
 
Naeun gained a little bit of courage, “You think?”
 
“Of course! Gain some backbone, Song Naeun!” Chanyeol waved it off, “You should, alright? Promise!” He stuck his pinky out to her.
 
Naeun stared at his finger for a second before feeling guilty. Sehun made a promise with her too.
 
Sehun.
 
Naeun almost frowned if it wasn’t for Chanyeol’s hasty action. He quickly twirled his pinky with hers, giving her no time to think.
 
“Good luck.” He winked, and he was off.
 
Soon, Sehun, D.O, and Baekhyun filed in and everyone began eating.
 
“Sorry, leader hyung. I had to get some beauty sleep, and I ended up oversleeping.” D.O chuckled, “You did a good job on the food, though.”
 
Suho beamed proudly at D.O’s praise.
 
“Beauty sleep? It seems like you got uglier after you woke up. You should go back to sleep afterwards.” Kai whispered to Sehun and the two snickered. D.O heard it and slammed his fist on the table, “YAH!”
 
Both Kai and Sehun shut their mouths and forced themselves not to laugh when they obviously wanted to. Naeun chuckled from beside Baekhyun, making him turn around and look into her eyes.
 
Naeun caught his gaze and ducked her head in slight embarrassment, but mostly happiness. She lightly smiled at Baekhyun who handed her a napkin, “Thank you.”
 
Luhan, Chanyeol, Kai and Sehun all watched carefully as Baekhyun smiled back at her.
 
But it was all wrong.
 
His smile didn’t reach his eyes.
 
Luhan’s expression hardened. Kai gaped. Sehun narrowed his eyes, while Chanyeol’s eyes grew wide. They all could tell that something was wrong.
 
Baekhyun wasn’t returning the feelings.
 
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Voicemail - B.A.P
 
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After breakfast, Naeun had finally decided.
 
She was going to finally confess.
 
Naeun couldn’t deny that she was feeling nervous and hesitant about the decision, but after all, she wanted to let him know her feelings. She had waited too long.
 
A big part of her thought that she had a good chance of him saying yes.
 
“Where could he be…?” Naeun hummed as she walked along the hallways with her hands behind her back. She flinched when she heard a ghostly ‘boo!’ beside her ear.
 
 
 
She twirled around and saw both Jongin and Chanyeol, grinning mischievously at her, “You guys…!” She gave them a dissatisfied look and tried to restart her heart.
 
“Are you going to confess now?” Kai smirked knowingly. Naeun gaped at him and pointed at Chanyeol accusingly, “YOU told Jongin!”
 
Chanyeol avoided her gaze and whistled nonchalantly. Naeun held her head in mortification, “Great. Now another person knows. This is so embarrassing!”
 
“Ahh, don’t worry.” Kai clapped his hand on her back, “Probably the majority of EXO already knows. You two are just too obvious.”
 
Naeun gawked, “Great!” She threw her arms up in the air in disbelief, “Now everybody knows!”
 
Kai snickered, “Don’t worry, don’t worry. Just continue and get it over with. I’m sure he’ll accep—“ Naeun held out a hand, “Stop there. I don’t want to jump to conclusions yet.”
 
“Okay, okay.” Kai rolled his eyes, “You don’t have to—“
 
“Oh, how come everyone’s here?” Luhan came out of the washroom as he blinked at the crowd.
 
“Naeun’s confessing to Baekhyun!” Chanyeol happily mused. “WHA—“ Naeun spun around and gawped at him, “Chanyeol!”
 
Luhan chuckled, “Oh. No need to fret. I already know, Naeun-ah.”
 
Naeun didn’t look amused, “You too, Lulu?”
 
“Lulu, she says, without hesitation.” Kai chortled. Luhan and Naeun both threw him a look. He shut up. Luhan apologetically glanced at her, “Sorry, Naeun, but everyone in EXO-M already knows.”
 
Naeun sighed, “Seriously, you guys, this is just going too far—“ The four instantly froze when they heard shouting in EXO-K’s room.
 
“What the hell is going on…?” Kai murmured, bewildered. The shouts were getting louder. They sounded serious.
 
“I don’t know.” Luhan was even more puzzled. EXO never argued against anything. They never had a reason to argue. Everyone was always in perfect harmony.
 
“Check.” Chanyeol whispered, and the four slowly crept up to the room. The door was slightly creaked open, so they all took a quick peek in.
 
Suho was looking at Baekhyun with a firm gaze, “Baekhyun, let me speak first. Just hear me out before saying anything, alright? Don’t forget that I’m your leader. You are not to raise your voice against me, do you understand?”
 
Baekhyun looked away, but sat down on his bed, looking slightly apologetic, but mostly frustrated.
 
Suho gazed into his eyes, “I know that this Naeun is your Naeun.”
 
Naeun froze. *Your Naeun…?*
 
“I know it’s been hard on you, Baekhyun. It’s not easy to choose between your first love and your friends, but with us, you don’t have to choose. We’re alright with whatever choice you make.” He crouched down to meet his friend’s eyes, “Look, Baekhyun. Everyone knows how much you love Naeun. You’ve loved her ever since you were eight.”
 
*Eight… That was my age when I was cured from leukemia...* Naeun’s eyes widened in disbelief. *No… It can’t be…*
 
“That day, when all six of us went to Earth and Naeun stumbled upon us… I saw your expression. She captivated you. You were mesmerizing to her. From the start, you two were meant to be, and I know you want to be with her.” Suho searched Baekhyun’s eyes, “You gave up your wings so that she could live on. You’ve already suffered, and all we want is your happiness now. So please Baek… Just give in, and love her.
 
Naeun’s heart lurched in both endearment and excitement. *Baekhyun oppa… is my angel… and he loves me too.* She couldn’t breathe. *He loves me. My angel is in love with me.* Words couldn’t express how elated she was.
 
But her happiness didn’t last long.
 
Baekhyun stared up at Suho, “Can I speak now?”
 
The leader nodded.
 
Baekhyun stood up, “It’s not easy, hyung. I want to love her. I really do. But the thing is, I can’t. I’m not allowed to. When I gave up my wings for her, I never knew that it would affect everyone that I loved. I just went with what the voice told me to do. I had to follow His rules. But now… I have no idea what’s happening anymore. I keep trying to give up on her. I want to give her the cold shoulder. I don’t want my decisions to become selfish and hurt the ones I love.”
 
Suho just stared at him.
 
Baekhyun just grew more infuriated with every word he spat out, “Don’t you get it, hyung?! I’m selfish. I keep thinking about myself. Better yet—I kissed her! Yesterday, I gave in to my wants and didn’t even think once about the outcome.” He raked his hand through his hair in shame.
 
“If I told her that I loved her, and we got together as a couple, who knows what would happen to you and the others? It is forbidden to have a relationship between a dead angel and a human. Absolutely forbidden. I cannot have her, no matter how much I want her. I thought I could forget her, and just throw her aside, but then she just magically appeared on EXO Planet, and it made everything worse. She keeps filling my mind every single freaking day, and it hurts to breathe. It hurts to even think about her.” He choked up and let a hasty tear well up and slide down his cheek.
 
Naeun couldn’t believe what she was hearing. What did that mean, then? What was happening?
 
“…So what are you saying?” Suho stood up, looking Baekhyun straight in the eye.
 
“I’m saying that I’ve come to a decision.” He pursed his lips.
 
“I’ve decided… that I’m not going to love Song Naeun anymore. From now on, she is a stranger to me.”
 
And then the tears fell from Naeun’s face. In one swift movement, she fled the scene, pushing past Kai and Luhan.
 
“NAEUN!” The two both called in loud voices. Baekhyun and Suho both spun around at the name, dread evident in their expressions.
 
Naeun couldn’t hear them calling her anymore. Her ears rung painfully. She couldn’t hear anything anymore.
 
At that moment, she bumped into someone. She was meaning to push past him and run off, but the boy grabbed a hold of her wrists.
 
“Naeunnie… What happened?” Sehun couldn’t see her face clearly.
 
Naeun raised her head and faced him with a pained, almost broken expression. Sehun froze, dumbstruck by her gleaming tears, and let go of her.
 
Naeun took this as her chance, and left as quickly as she came.
 
From inside EXO-K’s room, Baekhyun’s heart crashed into a million pieces. *She heard it. She heard all the harsh things I said about her. She heard everything.* He knew he didn’t mean any of the things he said. No matter what, he wanted her, but he couldn’t have her. His intentions always became ignored when Naeun came in. Her smile alone could change Baekhyun’s mind in an instant.
 
Suho snapped out of it and bolted to the door, gaping at Naeun’s retreating figure, “NAEUN-AH!” But she wouldn’t turn around.
 
Baekhyun closed his eyes in remorse. *Hate me, Naeun-ah. I’m not worthy of having someone like you in my life. It’s better if you go back to Earth and find someone more suitable for you than me.* But he didn’t want to let her go.
 
Chanyeol’s balled up fists shook as he raised his head. In one hard, swift punch, Baekhyun was down on the floor.
 
“YOU BASTARD! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU’RE DOING?!” Chanyeol roared, punching his best friend in the face again.
 
“Chanyeol!” Suho growled, “STOP!”
 
Chanyeol didn’t. Baekhyun didn’t complain about the hits he was receiving. He deserved it, anyways. A couple painful seconds later, his punches slowed down. Baekhyun turned to look into Chanyeol’s eyes when light teardrops landed on his cheek.
 
“You idiot… Don’t…. Don’t let her go… Don’t regret leaving the one you were destined to be with.” Chanyeol clutched onto his aching chest, “Don’t make the mistake of letting her leave… when she means the world to you. When she becomes your oxygen… when she becomes everything that matters… that’s when you have to be selfish and protect her! Stop trying to be all holy, because I know you aren’t. Angels aren’t freaking perfect either. So stop the pathetic façade and man up… or else I’ll have to punch you again, and you know I won’t hold back.”
 
Baekhyun kept quiet and just listened.
 
“SAY SOMETHING, DAMMIT!” Chanyeol furiously grabbed his collar and mercilessly yanked him up. “SHE CAME HERE TO CONFESS TO YOU, AND YOU JUST THOUGHTLESSLY TOSSED HER ASIDE!”
 
Baekhyun’s bangs fell onto his eyes and he was speechless.
 
“Kris! Tao!” Suho pleaded.
 
“Got it.” The two nodded. In a matter of minutes, Chanyeol was pulled away from Baekhyun. Chanyeol didn’t even put up a fight.
 
Suho stared into his eyes and tried to calm down, “Just because I pulled Chanyeol away from you doesn’t mean that I’m not as frustrated as he is.”
 
“You’re only making things worse for yourself. Worrying about us is not your job. We make our own decisions as a team. Just go for what your heart desires. Sometimes, you have to be selfish. Can’t you see? All I want for you is to be happy Baekhyun, but you keep pushing your happiness away. When there is no happiness inside a person—no—inside anyone, what do they become? They become a dead shell. Nobody wants to become that. You’ve already experienced being a dead shell, haven’t you? That depressing feeling that sinks into your very bones and makes you hate the world?” Suho asked.
 
Not one response came from him. A stiff silence went on for a while until someone broke it.
 
“Byun Baekhyun.”
 
Baekhyun looked up in shame to see Sehun at the doorway, amongst the other EXO members that came to see what the matter was.
 
Sehun gave him a heartbreaking smile, “Go get her.”
 
Baekhyun didn’t have to be told twice. He got up and disappeared out the door.
 

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singingpromises #1
:( I've been reading so many gay fics Idk if I should read this :(((
suhohubby #2
<3
Lolypop123 #3
Chapter 47: Aw that was sweet♥
sivlux
#4
omg i'm gonna re read this bc i love this fic
lokopanda24 #5
Chapter 47: after several days i finally finished reading it and i have to say it is simply amazing, i loved it, thank you so much
BunnyH
#6
Chapter 19: I just realize that D.O, this -2 letters with one period - look like emoji of kyungsoo himself. almost
Hahahhahahaha
It has been years I first read your story and the nostalgia is ughhhhhawesome
Juicystrawberries #7
One of the first stories that I read when I started reading fanfics and just finished re-reading it, this story is really amazing
pinkdolphins_ #8
Chapter 32: ASJDKSKAHSJDSSJGF GO GET HER BAEK
exosehunlove10 #9
Chapter 47: I love it!! Specifically I am not a fan of Baekhyun but after reading this story i love him...Or atleast he's one of my fav bias
ParkSaehee #10
Chapter 47: This story was just amazing.. I felt mixed emotions while reading it ^^ So good and the best, Author-nim!! Good Job!!! :)))