Lay's Monologue:Odds

Thank you, chingu ramenrulz8p for making the "blinking" poster! Okay, hehe! Here's my double update! It's a Lay Monologue. 

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>>>LAY'S POV<<<

After finding temporary happiness in Angry Birds, I looked at the window again.

The double points ceased to amuse me. I stood by the window to examine the cityscape closely.

I could actually see the reflection of the heiress, Min Hyeok, and Xiu Min. 

Goldilocks and the Three Bears.... Tao is the Goldilocks. Min Hyeok is the father bear. The heiress is the mother. Xiu Min is the baby.

You're probably thinking that my thoughts are lacking coherence. 

Because it's true. My mind's been preoccupied by another matter.

I give up.

I'm guilty.

You want honesty?

Here's honesty.

I'm guilty of what I said to Ms. Zhang. Now that I think about it, who am I to judge and assume? 

What I did was stupidity. Yes, stupidity is never an abstract word. It's  concrete. It's tangible.

Saying that she was "dirty" was plain and downright foolish and low and silly and stupid and moronic. and dumb.

I'm thinking... what could have accouted for me to say that?

And so what if she's touched? half-touched? or not?

Does it even matter? It doesn't.

The modern world is a cruel one. It sends forces to disrupt the soul's equilibrium. Carnal pleasure.Lust. Alcohol. Drugs.

It's a mad world. I have absolutely no right to assume and intervene with the life of Aya Zhang.

This epiphany I'm having... I never planned it.

I'M GUILTY.

I'm not blind. Of course I saw her teary eyes when I said that, of course I saw her disappointment, of course, I heard her weak voice...

Of course, I felt stupid.

I can't blame anyone else for this. It's my fault.

I can't believe that I've been actually thinking of what I said these past few weeks. I had to reject 36 phone calls from Kwon Ye Min every night because my insult haunted me.

Why did I even say that?

I'm not sure at all.

I'm sure of my stupidity.

But why can't I apologize that easily?

It's not pride. Trust me.

I'm afraid? No.

Then what?

I'm stupid. I don't know the answer.

>>> FAST FORWARD<<<

Two days after Xiu Min's hospitalization, I decided to let the odds play.

My feet brought me to the local mall. I ended up buying a throng of fake flowers.

As to why I bought it, the answer's pretty obvious.

I made up my mind. Fake flowers, make way for my forgiveness.

She mentioned that she likes fake flowers the best. My luck is pushed.

I held my breath when I arrived at the SM Building, EXO department.

There you are, heiress. Found you.wearing eyeglasses, arranging our clothes for the Men's Health Magazine.

You're one foot away from me. With fake flowers in hand, I'm nothing but ready.

ready to apologize.

I exhaled and walked slowly, so she wouldn't notice my tensed breathing.

I've never apologized to anyone before, hence the tensed breathing.

I swallowed. I was getting closer.... Why did it feel like a music video?

And then Kwon Ye Min also made a cameo.

She ran and kissed my cheek.

"Oh oppa! Thanks! You're so sweet!" Ye Min squealed....

and took the flowers.

---END OF CHAPTER 31---

[A/N: I told you, I love cockblocks. <33333]