I was on the ground..
Sehun rushed towards me
helping me up.
"Seun-Mi-shi as I said.. you need more time to rest!"
"What did you say? He will wake up RIGHT?" I pointed this question out.
"Don't worry.. about that! First of all.. the people that are here with us.. should be getting the best treatment... WE DID EVERYTHING THAT WE COULD TO HELPT YOUR BOYFRIEND.. now its up to him..!"
I busted out crying Sehun was holding me in his hand.. comforting me.. he could feel my tears on his shirt..
"Is there a possibility to sleep with him in this room?" I asked the doctor.
"I can arrange an extra bed in here.. if thats your wish.. and you will rest more.. than yeah!"
I was now in Kais room.. lying on my bed..that was close to Kais bed.. were a few inches away..
I was holding his hand.. waiting for him.. to come back..
I WONDER WHAT HIS DREAMING ABOUT?
Exo-member came in and out.. leaving flowers.. food.. and toys..
But my hand didnt let go a second of his..
Now alone.. finally able to close my eyes.. pressing his hand..
wanting to feel him..
expecting a move from him..
Was I wrong? For coming again to your side?
Did I make a mistake to leave you alone?
Would there have been an accident?
Question.. that my mind made crazy... sleepy.. that I finally could take a nap..
It has been eight more days since.. I woke up..
Everybody knew me.. greeting me .. always cheering me up..
Two days ago I was released from the hospital.. going to our new house.. decorating with the help of Exo our room.. to make it comfortable.
Everybody acted the same way as before.. when Kai was with us..
but I couldnt ..
But somehow.. I got used to it..
going every morning to Kais hospital room..
leaving him.. flowers behind..
pouring the other ones.. that were left behind..
It has become a routine thing...
But the fear to loose him is still there..
People was behaving extra sensual to me..
I didnt like it.. they.. just talked about the weather.. to let me have the peace..
But .. whos talking about the weather.. nowadays.. just weird people.. and the weather guy..
Whatever.. as long I didnt think for a moment of him.. it was fine..
After four days.. I could smile a little bit.. Sehun was giving me the strength..and SURPRISE SURPRISE KRYSTAL SHOWED UP..
but not for Kai.. FOR SEHUN.. I asked them.. how they got up..
but they just embarrassedly answered.. "It just happened.. !" yeah right.. but I didnt want to ask them more about their private lives.. so.. I turned again my attention to Kai..
Every second day.. I was trying to wash him a little bit.. leaving the private parts to Sehun..
I awkwardly tried to shave his always growing beard... but I leaved to the professional Sehun..
Days.. were becoming brighter.. getting positive thoughts.. NOT THAT HE MIGHT WAKE UP.. but that he will wake up..
Today.. I didnt show up in the morning.. because Im working with the exo-members to improve their dancing skills.. as you remember I won the competition... being their teacher.
I showed up late at night.. going inside his room..
I was depressed.. the weather.. was not that good.. there hasnt been the sun out..
it was cold outside..
It rained hard..
It was warm inside..
the lamp on his desk.. was giving a warm feeling..
I dont know.. but... I MISSED HIM TODAY..
The dance machine..
"You know Kai.. Today.. was a hard training day.. you would have done it so easily.. the others were short of breath after a few steps.. HOW COULD YOU HANDEL THEM? keeping them together? Lay started a quarrel between the members.. Everybody wanted to have a part in the middle of the ceography... how could we add the people in the middle? Well.. its not that easy to handle.. is it?.."
I looked at Kai.. who look liked a devil angel.. having the peace fullest sleep ever..
"You sure are amazing.. arent you?.. Keeping the faith in them.. I couldnt take it today... Kai. it was the hardest day.. ever! I dont know why Im actually talking to a numb person.. who can even move his little finger showing me.. that he is still here with me.. but If I would ask you.. why I do that? You would probably think the same think.. right? .... CUZ I FEEL GUILTY!!... why did you even make me fall in love with you.... WHY? answer me KAI WHY? You cant answer right.. yeah.. I know.. !"
I went to his bed.. going inside the pillow moving his arm around.. my waist.. and cuddling to his chest..
"If you wake up.. you might now even know me right? Should I than enjoy the time with you .. here? ...Kai weve been through so much already... you couldnt even introduce me as your girlfriend.. because of the childish act of mine.. IM SO SORRY.. IM REALLY SO SORRYY.. Kai for everything... Ive done to you.. I EVEN DONT DESERVE .. the right to see you... I MEAN LOOK AT you.. .. you can just breath right now.. ... ahhh... Kai.. if you really.. wont know me.. when you wake up.. THAN I THINK I WOULD LIKE TO STAY THE WAY IT IS RIGHT NOW!"....
My tears were running down my cheek leaving a little pond on his shirt.. ..
I was grabbing his hand.. interacting his hand in mine..
and slowly falling into a deep sleep with the words :"DONT WAKE UP KAI.. Im afraid.. of it!"
BUT AT THAT MOMENT... KAI WAS SLOWLY.. opening his eyes..
is there actually a better word to describe good... HAHAHAH.. needing here an answer..
BUT DOUBLE.. extra fanfci service for my EXISTAS..
STAy turned on like wallways..
AND HELLLLLLLLLLLLL IM GETTING BETTER AND BETTER.. keeping up the TENSION... muaahahah... dont leave without a comment... guss why?..
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