Got a One Regret
Prompt 2: Escape
Warning(s): Angst, sadness...all that good, emotional stuff.
It wasn't the first time that Han Geng wondered whether or not he made the right choice, leaving SM Entertainment. It wasn't that he liked SM Entertainment that much to begin with, however: they overworked not only him, but the rest of Super Junior, as well as the various other groups underneath their contract. It made his stomach churn, seeing all those tired, miserable-looking faces day in and day out, knowing what they were going through, and not being able to be a proper hyung or oppa or dongsaeng and do anything about it.
It was that he would have to give up contact with Super Junior, and all the other artists underneath SM Entertainment's contract, for God only knows how long. Han Geng didn't want this; he didn't wish to simply disappear from their lives, never to be heard from again. Sure, he had known before the consequences of filing a lawsuit against SM Entertainment and winning it: of course he did. They had made it very clear to him, but he had already known, and already made the choice of going through with it even though he knew this.
But now that it was actually happening, now that he had left Super Junior behind, it finally hit him. Not seeing their faces in the morning, not knowing how they were doing, not being able to hear their voices, or to witness their crazy antics...it hurt Han Geng greatly. There were times when he just wished to see them again, SM Entertainment and contracts be damned, but he knew it was impossible.
For now, he wouldn't be able to see them. For now, he'd have to deal with waking up and going to sleep alone. For now, he would have to deal with the rage of ELFs, and how they believed him to be selfish, leaving Super Junior.
Perhaps they'd realize, one day, that Han Geng wasn't truly gone. Perhaps they'd realize that he had never left, not truly. Super Junior was always going to be fifteen; whether or not Kibum was inactive, and whether or not SM Entertainment believed him to be out of Super Junior for good.
Still, it didn't lessen the pain a lot. It didn't make the tears stop, or the ache in his heart end. And it never would, he was sure.
Han Geng had managed to escape from SM Entertainment's greedy clutches, that was true...but at what cost? Leaving Super Junior alone, leaving all of his beloved members to perform and smile and laugh without him...had he made a mistake having done so? Should he have stayed? Was there a way to have worked things out, somehow?
He would never know.
Word count: 446.
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