November 24, 1999

I walked around my school and noticed a little girl around my age sniffing the beautiful flowers.  I couldn't help but be attracted by her beauty.  She had long black straight hair which reached below her shoulders and wore a pink frilly dress.  Her light skin glowed in the morning sun. 

I walked towards her and greeted myself with a smile on my face.  "Hi!  My name is Lee Jinki.  Who might you be?"

The little girl looked up at me and smiled brightly.  "Hello, my name is Choi Eunae.  Nice to meet you, Jinki-sshi."  We both shook hands and glanced at the pretty flowers.

"These are my favorite flowers, zephyrantus."  I looked skeptically at her.

"Zephywha-?"  I tilted my head in confusion.  She lightly chuckled at me and slightly pushed me by the arm.

"Zephyrantus are my favorite flowers."  she explained briefly and looked back at the flowers.

"Why do you like zephyrantus?"  I asked her.  Eunae looked back at me and replied, "Because they're the first flowers I've seen in my life that are pink."

"Do you like the color pink?"  She nodded.  "Why?"

"Because it's the color of love!"  She exclaimed proudly as she looked up at the sky.  Note to self:  Every time you see her, give her zephyrantus and buy her anything that has pink on it.

October 25, 2005

"Will you marry me?"  I asked Choi Eunae a few months before high school graduation.

I proposed to her traditionally bending down on one knee and showing her a diamond cut ring - an engagement ring which Taemin, my nephew, helped pick out as I was babysitting him in the mall last weekend.  I mentally thanked him and decided he should be the ring bearer for our wedding, if Eunae says yes.

Eunae blushed in embarrassment and looked around the classroom.  Ah yes, I proposed to her in front of our shocked classmates during free time at school.  I don't care what they say - I love her!

"SAY YES!  CHOI EUNAE!  SAY YES!  CHOI EUNAE!"  Our classmates were chanting in English.  I rolled my eyes at their silly antics.  I made another mental note to have the reception huge so that all my classmates would attend.

Eunae smiled brightly as warm fresh tears spilled from her eyelids.  "Yes, I'll marry you, Onew."  She's been calling me Onew ever since we were little children.  She used to comment a lot on how soft my skin was that she decided to come up with a nickname for me, which was Onew.  I didn't mind her calling me that.  ONLY SHE SHOULD CALL ME THAT, THOUGH.  NO ONE ELSE.

WAIT.  LET ME REGISTER THAT LAST THING SHE SAID.

SHE SAID YES?!

"Omo~ really?!"  I asked in disbelief.  She nodded rapidly and jumped into my welcoming arms.  I grinned like a goofy idiot as our classmates around us cheered for joy.

January 11, 2006

The day when Eunae and I got married.  On our honeymoon, she made me the happiest man alive.  I love her so much even before she started to have feelings for me.  I don't care what anybody says - we're in love, and nothing will stop us from spending the rest of our lives together.

Not even Choi Minho, Eunae's younger brother.  He's always loved her and sometimes can even be more overprotective than their parents are over Eunae.  I love him like my own brother, but I'm afraid he doesn't see me that way, ever since I proposed to Eunae.  Hey, at least I pestered him to be my best man in the wedding.  :)

September 10, 2006

I massaged Eunae's shoulder as she cradled the baby in her arms.

"Onew, what should we name him?"  she asked me.  I began to think, but I'm not creative, so I wouldn't know what to even call the baby of my child.

Just then, outside of our hospital room, we heard voices in the hallway.

"KIM JONGHYUN!  KIM KIBUM!  HOW DARE YOU TWO TRY TO ELOPE?!  YOU'RE LUCKY YOU TWO NEVER GOT RUN OVER AT THAT TIME!!!"  I could hear an elderly woman yell at a young couple, most likely.  I chuckled silently and shook my head.

Suddenly, the idea just came into my head.  Thank you, Kim Jonghyun and Kim Kibum!

"Eunae-yah!  What if we name the baby Hyunki?!"  I exclaimed proudly, my smile never leaving my face.  Eunae looked glad and pleased with my decision.

"Okay then!  Hyunki, welcome to life~!  I'm Eunae, your beloved mother, and this man standing next to me is Onew, your father."  she greeted the baby as he slowly opened his eyes at us.  I giggled at her silly gestures.  Man, I love them so much! :D

February 2, 2007

Why'd you have to leave?  Why'd you have to go, Eunae?

I love you - Hyunki loves you!  We both need you in our lives; no one can replace you....

I cried silent tears as my knees gave way, and know I'm kneeling in front of her tombstone.  Minho was as cold to me as ever, but he decided to soften up a bit, since it wasn't my fault.  Even he knew that.

As it turns out, Eunae discovered during high school that she had cancer, and only she and Minho knew that from the doctor once.  Their parents were out on a business trip at the time, and Eunae didn't want to bother me with this, so she declined every treatment offered to her.  That's why Minho had been mad at me this whole time - it was after he learned Eunae wanted to live her life with me in peace rather than get treated to even TRY to get better that he got angry with me.

Stupid Eunae.  You only tell me 2 weeks ago that you're dying of cancer?  And it was after you fell unconsciously during your classes that I had to find out?  Stupid!  You should've gotten better!

I love you, Eunae, and no one will replace you and Hyunki in my heart.

Minho took care of Hyunki during the weekends and he often visited me nowadays.  He wanted to make it up to me for all those times that he gave me a hard time.  I told him he didn't have to, but he insisted on it.  I let him, since he's Eunae's brother and seeing Hyunki will help the boy at ease.

Not like me.  I'd only smile around Minho and Hyunki genuinely, but towards everyone else I'd just stay quiet and be at content.  I never tried finding love again.  I have all I need.

March 1, 2010

Minho sadly declined Hyunki's request to hang out with us at the park since he has to start his 1st year in college.  I wished him good luck as he left to his classes.

I played with a 4 year old Hyunki around the playground.  I chased him until I caught him in my arms and I lifted him in the air, pretending he was in an airplane.  My back felt a bit weak, so I had to put Hyunki back down and let him play with the other children at the mini playground.

I sat on a bench and watched my son play on the swings with other children.  I felt a presence and turned to my right, my jaw dropping as my eyes widened.

I couldn't utter a word.

This boy had a nice smile, and I swear, he could pass as Choi Eunae if he grew his hair long enough.

Not only that, but he was wearing pink.  PINK.  And he plucked a zephyrantus flower beside him from a bush, sniffing it and taking a deep sigh.

Lord, are playing tricks with me...?