Since we can't do anything about this, you will still have a special place in my heart. It was so surprising yet disturbing to know that when I was having my lunch, you were alive and healthy. But after i wake up a few hours later from sleep, you were gone. I will respect your decision but to people out there, please do not think of sucide as an easy way to end pain. Let it be the last option on your list. Face the world with challenges you face and please talk about the things you are getting disturbed by with someone close to you. If it helps, talk to a stranger, since the person doesn't know you so they can't judge you.
Shinee was the second band I knew in kpop after EXO so it just hurts to know that we already lost a member. This day will be marked as the day you left this world but no matter what happens, I'll still see you as the spiky dude in Lucifer or the guy who tried to dye his own hair during ring ding dong era and also a great vocalist who stole everyone's heart with his voice. I hope people and fans can cope up with this soon and just remember that everone needs to leave one day and Jonghyun decided that the day he leaves will be this day. Some people might be wondering why I am rambling when I am not a shawol but do know that I never considered myself as a shawol cause I thought I didn't know them enaugh to be called as one of you guys. When they used to laugh on variety shows, it just made me smile to see them happy as a family and enjoying their life while achieving their dreams together. A great producer, vocalist, role model, friend, brother and family. Kim Jonghyun, may you rest in peace.