Too Late

A Farewell

Dear Jonghyun,

 

I’m sorry. I’m sorry I couldn’t give you my love and adoration. You were one of the first idols I learned about and recognized in this community. You gave me comfort and laughs (you still and always will). I’m sorry I wasn’t able to support you and I’m sorry for not seeing how far gone you were.

It reminds me how I didn’t know my best friend of 12yrs, practically my sister was bulimic, cutting herself, and was so depressed that she was sent to rehab. I feel the same uselessness I felt that same day and it’s too late.

It’s too late...

How did we not notice your pain? I don’t know, you were so clear and honest, and did we just turn away from the reality? Did we just want to see the happy part? Maybe...and that cost us a wonderful person’s life. You planned this...you said goodbye and said you’ll rest in December. I hope you’re sleeping well.

Do Angels sleep?

I hope you’re ok and that my God welcomes your beautiful personality to his kingdom. You will be missed dearly by so many and I hope you can take care of your beautiful Pearl Aqua ocean. I hope that one day we may meet in the fields of paradise with your breathtaking smile that gave me courage to go on.

From, a person who will miss a talented, beautiful, young man who the world did not deserve.

P.S;: so many took you and your work for granted. It pains me to see many ppl just using you and it makes my skin crawl for how wrong that is. You don’t deserve this treatment.

Please smile, please take care of your brotherS and Sm family from above, God knows how they’re feeling....

I love you.

See you later.

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Redofthedawn #1
I'm aware that it isn't December but I just thought of this post. December will never be easy for a lot of us. I'm more aware of my depression around that time. I just became an adult and the realization that a lot can change has finally hit me. I'm not sure how to feel. People within my family have died or are dying and it seems like the only thing I'm allowed to do is move on. I'm no longer given the luxury of grieving the way I had with Jonghyun. There are so many fond memories that I can go back to with Jjong but for them I only have memories. So much has happened these past few years and while I'm not completely okay I can say there's plenty of room where I've healed.

As year 6 approaches I want my fellow Shawols to know that healing is hardly a linear task. It's okay to not be ready but where you are there's always going to be SHINee.

And Dear Author thank you for keeping this space for all of us.
luv_kero 2442 streak #2
Thank you for keeping this space for us for so many years <3 This milestone hit me a lot harder than expected, but seeing this brought so much comfort. Miss you to the moon and back, Jonghyun <3
Viola_Ella #3
Chapter 818: When I saw in newfeed I just realised today is the day. He is a sweet,kind and precious soul. I miss him.
Evelyn_64 #4
It’s been five years today and just a few days ago I turned 27, the age Jonghyun-ah was when we had to say goodbye to him. I have long since had to “become an adult” and learn what growing up means; yet every year I come back to this little space, and read some of the messages that people wrote for him, and think back to the letter I wrote at 22 and never shared with anyone. I think back to a memory of me looking at the full moon and talking to him for hours, telling him I missed him terribly. We still miss you, friend. I still remember you fondly. I still remember me at 17 dancing to Replay in my room. I’ll always cherish those memories of our Spring.



Author, I hope you have been doing well. Thank you so much for keeping this space running for so long, it brings comfort to some more than you’ll ever know.
OdetteSwan 928 streak #5
I'm so glad you won the bid. I will start collecting karma points again.
Good work.
OdetteSwan 928 streak #6
Chapter 818: I just really paid attention to SHINee this August. Yet, when Jonghyun passed away four years ago, I felt sad that another beautiful and caring person chose to leave this place. In fact, I didn't want to listen to any SHINee songs then.
Now, watching SHINee's MVs, I feel like I have accepted what happened and hope that he is really happy now.
Redofthedawn #7
Time keeps moving on and I wonder why I can't just go back and fix things to when it was so peaceful. So much has happened in the last four years and it feels as though there's only SHINee left to comfort me. Jonghyun for so long I've written my letters to you and I couldn't this year because I couldn't find the strength or will to when I was feeling down. I haven't cried this much since I was a baby. I promised last year that I would tread the new year with caution and that didn't work out so great. There's more I wanna say but I just wish you knew how much I love you. Thank you for being born and sharing your light with the world. Sincerely I love you. 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 ❤️
lovelyfeisty #8
It’s been 4 years now and so it’s hard to believe that you left us, but I still do remember you as SHINee’s Blingbling Angel and as the brightest star that shines in the sky.

I used to feel so lonely after knowing that you left us, that I was listening to Lonely everyday for about a year, but now I just remind myself that you’re still with us, as the bright shining star watching over us from the night sky. ❤️
I will always love you.
wonpokemon #9
i was InMemoryOfJonghyun!
just thought i'll let you know so you don't add this username again~ =]
anyways, good luck with the add and for all those who come here and are thinking of Jjong and of others and themselves.
aseulmonsta #10
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