Your Heart Worn On Your Sleve
A FarewellDear Jonghyun,
It hit me like a truck when I found out. I just couldn't believe I was losing you, we were losing you. I loved you so much Jonghyun, you were so amazing, your heart was so beautiful and worn on your sleeve for all to see. You had such an amazing voice, were such a great musician and producer.
Shinee was one of the bands I got into at the beginning, with bigbang, TVXQ, 2ne1 etc. I just loved their music, I cant count how many times I played Replay & in my room . Over the years they just got better and better, and then Jonghyun did his solo music and it was like it spoke to me. His voice has just been so stellar all through, and his style so unique and different. He always made me happy.
So Jognhyun, I hope you know that you and Shinee put a smile on my face when it got just too much, I could let it out, and cry. You got me through.
To be someone with major depressive disorder, I get the overwhelming tsunami of feelings of helplessness and worthlessness that comes at you, when life gets just too much you want to run as far and as fast as you can away from it. There were so many times your music gave me a place to run, a place to take cover, a place be feel again, and gain the courage to go back. And when you spoke out about mental health and depression, in an industry like KPOP that you knew may chew you up & throw you out for it, but you did it to save lives, to let people know they weren't alone.
So Jonghyun, you did good. You did more than good, you & shinee have been shining stars to light the way and make our hearts happy, You have literally saved lives through your music, and you just being you.
My heart breaks but I will let you go, so you don't have to feel pain anymore.
Please be happy Jonghyun. You have lived well, rest now.
I love you Kim Jonghyun, forever will.
Don't worry about Shinee, your family, your friends, we will do for them what we could not do for you. We will love that much harder, we will remember to tell them they did good, we will remember to tell them its okay, and to be okay.
#MissyouAlways #BeStrongShinee #PrayforShinee #JonghyunWeLoveyou
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