Kim JongHyun,
I'd never expect myself to be writing a letter to you in this way. It pains my heart as my fingers type on the keyboard right now. When I first found out of your news, I was in shock and thought it was some kind of sick joke. But then reality hit me and I started mourning your death. I'm a freshman in college and this past week was actually finals week, but my mind never left you. While doing my final cramming session, I was listening to your songs and shinee songs to keep me company and help me study. However, when lonely started playing I broke down. I myself understand how hard it must have been for you. Thinking how everything is my fault as well. I cry myself to sleep every once in a while thinking how useless I am.  And your voice somehow gave me comfort. I wish I could have given you some comfort back but it was too late, you're gone. Can I ask you for a favor then? My maternal grandfather and paternal grandmother just joined heaven this year as well. Make sure they are fine ok? I'm sure they will look after you as well. Both of them are loving, kind and awesome people. My grandfather, in particular, has an awesome sense of humor. Thank you so much for everything, for your presence when you were still alive. I will still mourn your death but I will celebrate your life as well. For JongHyun, your life was a blessing to all of us. Your angelic voice, your sometimes savageness. You've worked hard and you did so well. But now, it is time for you to rest sweetie. Be happy and rest well.  I know you're up there watching out the rest of us.

xoxo
G