Too Blinded By Seeing You As An Idol Only
A Farewell
Jonghyun oppa!
Bling bling. I’ve always been a huge fan because i saw you as an idol filled with talent and passion. in my room will always be a song that i significantly associated with you, idk why but it reminds me of you every single time it plays, maybe because your vocals are such lovely melodies to my ear in that specific song.
I’m sorry for what you had to go through. I’m sorry nobody heard your outcry, your yell for help, the signs and all the hints. I’m sorry i was too blinded by seeing you as an idol only, never really realizing you were human too who gets tired, who feels hurt and who feels alone too. i’m sorry you had to realize late, that the limelight wasn’t for you, it wasn’t what you wanted and that it only brought you loneliness and pain. i’m sorry you had to go through it alone. im sorry
i wish that wherever you may be right now, you are my happier version of bling bling. that you may find peace and tranquility as you look over all of us left here. i don’t blame you for choosing to end your life this way. i understand. i just wish that in the next life, you will be the same Kim Jonghyun i have come to know but this time, someone who can enjoy walking in the park freely, a normal student kim jonghyun, a kim jonghyun free to date in public and a kim jonghyun who has joy.
i will miss you, but your songs, the symphonies and lyrics you have made will be etched in my heart forever. if i hear your song anywhere, it will still hurt but it will be a reminder for me that once in my life i have come to know a person like you, even if from afar.
it was an honor to be your fan.
You did well Jonghyun. You did very well.
Love,
B❤️
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