(W) Those Thoughts
A Farewell
Shinee was my first kpop group, and a group who also helped me greatly away from my own suicide thoughts even though I had talked with someone about it I still had, and have, those thoughts.
I focused on the music more than my depression and it helped get away from it a bit. Jonghyun... your voice was of a powerful angel, it made me dream of becoming a singer in Korean despite the odds of being a white girl who weren't the best singer nor dancer. But this was all because I wanted to be like Jonghyun and the rest of shinee, yes I started to listen to other groups and right now my favorite group are svt but I always go back to shinee due to their music talking to me as a fan and as a person.
Yes you have been through a lot and this gave you piece but jonghyun we will alway miss you and your voice, your smile, you in general because we looked up to you as fans and persons. You've been through a lot but a lot of us supported you throughout the dating scandal, your car accident and more.. now we'll look up at the sky and remember you, your music and what you have done for the people with mental illnesses and those who are in the LGBQT.
I'm saying my last thank you due to how much you've helped me with your songs and how you made me dream again. I want to make sure your dream about a family will come true, I'm not saying this as something I feel burdened to I say this because I too want a family and I want to make sure as a fan that jonghyun will get a child more despite not being his biological child.
You're not my only angel, in 2013 my grandfather died, and he is my angel too. One of my beautiful angels.
Love from a victim of depression, a girl with dreams and a fan
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