(W) It Must Have Been Hard
A FarewellI just want to vent a little bit since this is really hitting me hard
I have suffered from depression for almost 6 years, in 2014 I discovered SHINee.
I remember that I felt accepted in this fandom
I felt so good listening to SHINee
I was so sad at that time, taking medication, relapsing every week because I didn't find a sense, something to hold on to, not even my family.
And I feel that SHINee came to me at the most appropriate moment, I saw in SHINee the light among so many black clouds, to say it somehow.
With their way of being, their hard work, that filled me with strength, and it seems silly that something like that has so much impact on you, people you don't know at all, but you join them through music.
I supported them throughout this journey, and for me it was so liberating. Because I had finally clung to something. I felt that from so far away they helped me to cope with everyday life.
Because for a lonely person like me, music gave me a little of that freedom, a moment to forget everything.
That is SHINee for me
Not just a kpop group, they are part of me and my fight and one of the few things that made me smile.
With what happened to Jonghyun, I really understand how hard I can, and I wish I would at least have done as much for him as he did for me. Holding his hand, telling him he was good enough.
You expect your idol to last for a lifetime but you never know what can be happening in his own life.
I will always love him and I will always support them until the end of my days.
Heaven won the angel with the most beautiful voice.
Thanks for helping me in my hardest times with your voice.
Thanks for your existence and for being part of my life
I hope in another life, I could finally meet you, and you can be the happiest person.
Jonghyun-ah, thanks for everything.
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