Dear Jonghyun Oppa,
I hope you’re no longer suffering and you’re happy Oppa... You worked so hard. You did great and you were great. There's nothing you could have done better. You were just so perfect the way you were. You were the bright shining light in my life that helped me find my way out of the darkness of my life I was living in and gave me so much hope. You're Bling Bling Angel, you once were and will always be forever. I realized all the songs you wrote and sing were about different types of feelings. Not just about anyone's feelings, but about your feelings. These songs you wrote were based on how you felt. Especially your last solo you came out with featuring Taeyeon, Lonely. It wasn’t about a couple that is lonely because couldn’t be together, but how you felt lonely because of your depression that was hurting you so much inside, it was one of the few hints that you gave to your depression but no one noticed. No one even noticed until it was just too late to save you. You didn’t commit suicide, depression murdered you. The moment I found out was right at the moment I woke up that morning. Find this news, my heart shattered into so many pieces wondering if it's possible for me to live through this situation knowing that no one will ever be able to replace you because you were just so perfect. I cried so much when I found out feeling the pain hurting so much knowing you're no longer alive. I just couldn’t believe it. It felt like nothing more than this nightmare I just couldn’t wake up from. I feel so empty inside knowing I’ll never get to see and hear you perform live in person. You were my ultimate bias ever since I was 12 and in 7th grade at the moment I discovered you, you had shed so much light into my life and gave me a reason I should be happy to be alive and smile for these past 6 years. You’ll always be my ultimate bias and favorite singer forever. I loved you back then and I will continue to love you forever and to never stop loving you. I’ll always love you forever for your talent, hard work you put in and your kindness. I will love you forever and remember you forever. You would cheer me up in the past every time I see your smile and laughter and when I hear your wonderful voice and beautiful amazing perfect vocals. When I'm sad I'll make sure I'll look up at the sky to find you and think of you. If I can't sleep I'll look in the night sky for your star knowing that yours shines the brightest. To hear your voice I will listen to your songs and music everyday so I can hear your voice. I will watch any video you appear in everyday to see your amazing face. I hope we could meet someday in Heaven and our next life. I will think of you as Bling Bling Angel while I look around and search for you. I will always be a SHAWOL for SHINee and you will always be a member of SHINee, only you've become an angel, Bling Bling Angel. I'm glad you're in a better place where you don't suffer anymore and you're somewhere you can be happy. I will miss you a lot. Thank you for being the bright light that still shines brightly in my life today. Thank You so much. Saranghaeyo Oppa. You done well Jonghyun Oppa. Rest In Peace.
Love Annabel