Dear Kim Jonghyun,

I feel like it was only yesterday that I discovered SHINee. SHINee was the first kpop group that really got me into kpop during the 7th grade for me. That was about 8-9 years ago? And the song was Lucifer and Hello that got me hooked. And you were my first ever bias. I was a shawol from the very beginning, even to now. SHINee was my introduction to kpop and I was glad that I invested my time into watching and listen to SHINee. I binged watched Hello Baby and every other variety show, and I really developed an attachment to you guys. Specifically, Jonghyun because I felt like I could relate to you. You know, I actually did a speech for my English class on Kpop during freshman year of high school and mentioned that my favorite song from SHINee is actually A-yo. Because I relate to that song a lot. During this time, someone I know personally, had taken their own life. I was going through a rough patch with things with their passing and my own personal life and SHINee was what got me through it. I am still in shock with the event and has helped me open my eyes a bit to my own demons. No matter how someone may look on the surface, the story that brews inside, might be telling a different story. No matter, how much money or success someone has, they might be battling their own battles; and they might be crying out for help in silence. I finally have someone that I can talk to about my problems and has helped me better myself; and that all due to me realizing my own battles. Truly, we don't walk alone, and realize that everyone is human and we all go through pain and struggle, and we aren't different from each other. So, hearing that you didn't think that you weren't enough, broke me down in tears. You were more than enough. It breaks my heart, to hear that your "doctor" treated you that way, and you didn't deserve that. You are more than enough. Truly. This shows that we, as a society, need to listen. We are all human. Just listening to someone's story, can help more than you know. Let's us love and cherish one another: strangers, your neighbor, your family and friends, whoever it may be, appreciate each other and that "hello how are you?" can make a difference.Now, Jonghyun, thank you for being there for me when I wasn't feeling right and down. Thank you for putting a smile on my face when I needed that the most. Thank you for giving the world, the sound of heaven with your voice. Thank you for being such a loving guy to your peers and mentors. Thank you for allow the shawols, be shawols. Thank you for being such a funny dude. Thank you for everything. You did well, Jonghyun.

"Carry on my wayward son

For there'll be peace when you are done

Lay your weary head to rest

Don't you cry no more" -Kansas

Thank you, being my beautiful angel. You will be remembered. You are loved. Rest in Peace among the stars, continuing to shine bright.