There Isn't Even A Cloud
A FarewellDear Jonghyun,
It's been more than two days since the news broke, and my heart never stopped hurting once.
There is too much I want to tell you.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for not noticing you earlier, I'm sorry for not paying attention to your work, I'm sorry for not trying anything to save you.
On the Internet, I saw posts about how one single question could've saved a person from falling.
But I also saw people making threads on how we missed each of the signs you tried to send us.
I'm so sorry for that.
I'm sorry that your doctor thought that way, they don't deserve to be one.
Thank you.
Thank you for the wonderful memories you give us, the uplifting music you made.
Thank you for that melodious laugh we'll never get tired of.
Thank you for being a part of SHINee, being a great brother for Jinki, Kibum, Minho and Taemin.
Thank you for staying bright and happy when you could choose not to.
Thank you for being strong.
Thank you for your existence.
You've done so well, thank you for everything.
It's half past 8 in the morning here in where I live, and it's an hour ahead in South Korea.
I heard they're getting ready to send you off.
But to be honest, I still can't believe you're gone.
It's just so hard to associate your name with the word "gone".
But I understand, you're not gone.
SHINee is consisted of 4 shining human, and 1 shining angel.
You have been shining so bright on the stage, and now you're really a star shining in the sky.
Should I be happy that you are in no pain anymore now? I probably should, but I can't bring myself to be happy.
There are so many white balloons being released into the sky, with love, with sadness, with dedication. I believe you can see them right?
It's rainy season here where I am, but the sky is not crying for you.
In fact, there isn't even a cloud.
I can almost see you smiling down at us.
The sky is so beautiful today, just like your smile.
You've worked hard, Jonghyun.
Now it's time to say goodbye.
Thank you for everything.
I'll always keep you in my mind.
Sleep well.
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