When You're 40
A FarewellToday, I listened to a song named Happy Birthday, sung by you.
It tore me up when I realized you will never be able to celebrate your birthday with us. I won't be blessed to see your happy face when you received a cake from the members, I won't be able to see your face in real life like I've planned to do next year, or whenever I've saved enough money.
I won't get those chances now.
Listening to your songs now make me cry, listening to your voice makes me sad.
I know I'm supposed to be happy, I know that is what you want.
But I can't help but to have the thought of joining you cross my mind, more than once.
You once said, when you're 40, you wanted to dance and sing replay with the other members.
I will remember you. Even if I cry when I thought of you, so be it. Even if I cried for three days thinking of you, so be it. I won't ever want to forget you, jonghyun, so wait for me.
I'll join you, I don't know when, but I know I will.
It may be sooner than I've originally thought.
Life is no longer happy for me, but I still hope I'll be able to smile again when I think about him.
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