Sm Ent introduced the most influential and wonderful group in 2008: SHINee. In 2013, I got into Kpop by listening to Replay. The first time I heard that song I was surprised by how good you guys are. I decided to look up into SHINee and started listening to all of your songs until now. Yesterday, I started to watch SHINee's old music videos, reality shows, funny moments and stuff. After that I went to facebook and the first thing that pop out in my screen was the news of your death Jonghyun. I felt uneasy and thought that it was just a fake news, I try not to believe it, I just couldn't.....
When I got to know the reason for it I froze, it's like time had stop. I suffer from anxiety but I tend to ignore it, it hurts and I don't have the guts to tell someone because I'm scared that they only thought that I was overreacting. The only thing that helps me escape from my anxiety was your songs. Your songs speaks to me, it cures me.... I listen to them when I'm scared, hurt, nervous, happy, sad, angry, all the time. I feel free when I listen to them. I always wanted to go to one of your concert or SHINee.... especially yours because you're my saviour. I'm sorry you have to face those horrible things. You help me find myself but I couldn't help you. It was obvious that you need help but I was blinded by your smile. It's been wonderful to have you shine on stage, being the special star for us Shawols but now you'll be shining for us from above and watching over us, SHINee, your family, for everyone.
Thank you for helping us who's suffering and for being there to make us laugh and smile making us forget about our darkness. I really wanna say that I'm just thankful for your existence. Thanks for being part of my life and helping me find my light. I will always listen to your songs. I'm sorry and I love you Jonghyun. You are always in Shawol's heart. Rest in peace and hope you're happy now...♡
Trying to advertise this for the 18th but someone else is bidding really hard so I am running out of karma (already bought more for over 30dollars) so if you have some spare you are willing to donate, I would be really thankful.
I'm aware that it isn't December but I just thought of this post. December will never be easy for a lot of us. I'm more aware of my depression around that time. I just became an adult and the realization that a lot can change has finally hit me. I'm not sure how to feel. People within my family have died or are dying and it seems like the only thing I'm allowed to do is move on. I'm no longer given the luxury of grieving the way I had with Jonghyun. There are so many fond memories that I can go back to with Jjong but for them I only have memories. So much has happened these past few years and while I'm not completely okay I can say there's plenty of room where I've healed.
As year 6 approaches I want my fellow Shawols to know that healing is hardly a linear task. It's okay to not be ready but where you are there's always going to be SHINee.
And Dear Author thank you for keeping this space for all of us.
Thank you for keeping this space for us for so many years <3 This milestone hit me a lot harder than expected, but seeing this brought so much comfort. Miss you to the moon and back, Jonghyun <3
It’s been five years today and just a few days ago I turned 27, the age Jonghyun-ah was when we had to say goodbye to him. I have long since had to “become an adult” and learn what growing up means; yet every year I come back to this little space, and read some of the messages that people wrote for him, and think back to the letter I wrote at 22 and never shared with anyone. I think back to a memory of me looking at the full moon and talking to him for hours, telling him I missed him terribly. We still miss you, friend. I still remember you fondly. I still remember me at 17 dancing to Replay in my room. I’ll always cherish those memories of our Spring.
Author, I hope you have been doing well. Thank you so much for keeping this space running for so long, it brings comfort to some more than you’ll ever know.
Chapter 818: I just really paid attention to SHINee this August. Yet, when Jonghyun passed away four years ago, I felt sad that another beautiful and caring person chose to leave this place. In fact, I didn't want to listen to any SHINee songs then.
Now, watching SHINee's MVs, I feel like I have accepted what happened and hope that he is really happy now.
Time keeps moving on and I wonder why I can't just go back and fix things to when it was so peaceful. So much has happened in the last four years and it feels as though there's only SHINee left to comfort me. Jonghyun for so long I've written my letters to you and I couldn't this year because I couldn't find the strength or will to when I was feeling down. I haven't cried this much since I was a baby. I promised last year that I would tread the new year with caution and that didn't work out so great. There's more I wanna say but I just wish you knew how much I love you. Thank you for being born and sharing your light with the world. Sincerely I love you. 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 ❤️
It’s been 4 years now and so it’s hard to believe that you left us, but I still do remember you as SHINee’s Blingbling Angel and as the brightest star that shines in the sky.
I used to feel so lonely after knowing that you left us, that I was listening to Lonely everyday for about a year, but now I just remind myself that you’re still with us, as the bright shining star watching over us from the night sky. ❤️
I will always love you.
i was InMemoryOfJonghyun!
just thought i'll let you know so you don't add this username again~ =]
anyways, good luck with the add and for all those who come here and are thinking of Jjong and of others and themselves.
