I woke up this morning late since I called into work sick. I my computer only to see the words Jonghyun dead. I was shocked to see those words and thought how could someone post such cruel words. Then I clicked on the story and read it and prayed for it to be a bad joke. As time went on, I saw that SM confirmed his death. After that, I was left with a heavy heart and started to cry. Shinee and Hello Baby are what got me into Kpop. Listening to Jonghyun's voice was magical and I've always loved his voice and stage presence. I'm sorry that no-one was there to just hug you and say it's okay to be sad. I'm here for you. I would be there. Tough we speak two different languages, if talking helps, I'll lend an ear. A part of me keeps saying why did it have to be death but I guess that's the only option you felt you had. It was too hard to go on. You left this world alone thinking no-one really loves you but you were wrong. Your mother and sister love you dearly and so do your fans. Though the love you get from your family and fans are different we all still love you. I'm not mad at you but I'm sad that this had to happen. Along with the "why?", I keep thinking wasn't there someone who could have helped you in some way.

Over the years, I've lost loved ones more than I care to say. Each death is different. Though I didn't know Jonghyun personally his songs, voice and words will always stay with me. His voice and songs got me through rough patches in my life and I'm forever grateful. He will never be forgotten. Forever loved. When will my tears stop and when will I be able to listen to a Shinee song or watch a video. Right now, I'm not sure since each time I hear his voice, see him on the screen and I do is cry. One day I will listen to Shinee. Be free, rest in peace and God has gained an angel. Fly free. xoxo