Love Yourself

Description

It began raining.

No. Pouring.

I sat down on a bench and stared into the dark, wet, disordered nothingness.

The rain quickly made my hair, face, body and clothes wet. Blurring and fogging my glasses, my vision was as good as blind.

Cold, my body told me. But I ignored it. Instead, I asked myself a question.

Actually, I constantly, always, asked myself this question.

Why was I here in the middle of Seoul? Or sometimes more often I question my meaning of existence. Why am I living anyways? What am I living for? Who am I living for? Well, yes, myself. But other than that, who else do I have? I know I have Mina. But who am I that deserves all her company and support and friendship and love and several other whatnots. She, just like all the other people in my life that I deem as important will one day, disappear. I know they will. Because they all have already…

A single teardrop rolled down my cheek.

Its not that I don’t have anything to cry for. Its just that, I won’t let anything make me cry.

After experiencing so many unforeseen events, I’ve taught myself that you have to be independent. One day, everybody will be gone, except for yourself. One day, you won’t have anyone to rely on, except for yourself. One day all you have to love is yourself

But sometimes that “yourself” is very, very lonely.

Out of the blue, I started crying.

Like real, real crying.

Like a mini version of the rain that’s pouring onto me right now. But with painful sobs and red swollen eyes and a hurting heart.

I’ve endured so much, it really isn’t funny anymore.

Oh how good it feels to cry again.

God knows how long I haven’t cried for.

Foreword

Yo, first fic so don't judge. Happy Reading!

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