Her Feelings

[A/N: Oh hi! I'm posting this early in the morning!]

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>>> JOO YOUNG'S POV<<<

Yi Xing Oppa took me out for a walk.

He was holding my hand all throughout.

I'm so delighted. It's as if I found a missing puzzle piece.

I can't even catch my breath. I looked at him.. It's been 3-4 years.

Nothing has changed...

Except for the fact that I am in love with another person.... Se Hun. 

But he doesn't love me back. 

When I was young, I thought I was going to marry Yi Xing, because we were always together...playing, studying...

But now,my heart is for Se Hun. ONLY for Se Hun.

"What.. how? How did you get here?" Oppa asked me.

I explained to him everything.

He clutched my hand tighter.

"Fate brought us together." He said.

I gave him a faint smile. 

I looked at the night sky...Lovely... 

It's not too cold anymore. 

I'm here with the kindest person in the world.

"I tried to look for you. I became an idol just to find you. Figured out that if I become famous, I'll use the money to search for you." Yi Xing told me.

I started crying again. 

"Appa and Umma don't want me anymore. Months ago, I found them, here, in China.. They neglected me." I narrated.

Yi Xing put an arm around me. "Argh, enough. At least I'm here already. I heard that Tao's been pestering you." He told me.

I chuckled. "Don't worry. I'll do something about it." Oppa said.

I smiled. How protective...

>>> FAST FORWARD<<<

Indeed, Tao has really stopped pestering me. He was...

normal...

Every EXO member is scared of Oppa... 

And Se Hun....

Over the past few days, he's been acting casually. 

But when he talks to me, it has become different.

His words became casual, collected, reserved.

He has become emotionless.

He's not avoiding me, nor is he avoiding Yi Xing or Tao.

But he's set a distance between the two of us...

Emotional Distance...

And it's so painful.

We'd bump into each other, and nothing happens. He won't even look at me. 

It hurt.

A Lot.

I'd usually spend my time talking to the other EXO members, Jinri-eonni, and often times, Yi Xing.

Every midnight, I would go out of my room to meet with Oppa, who's staying by the benches of the pool area.

We would talk, reminisce, but we never talked about my "fake marriage."

The only bridge between Se Hun and I is...

not Jinri-eonni...

not Lu Han...

but Fluffy...

.... It was afternoon, the third day of our vacation... 

Everybody else was swimming... Yi Xing Oppa and I were just sitting by the pool.

Se Hun was playing cards with Lu Han and Kai. 

Seee.... He doesn't even care about me now... Oh what the hell? I have no right to complain..

Fluffy suddenly came running towards me. I held his collar, but Fluffy, pulled me away.

I was forced to stand up abruptly.

"Joo Young-ah, kwenchana?" Yi Xing asked me. 

I nodded.

Yi Xing Oppa smiled and attempted to cuddle Fluffy, 

but Fluffy barked at him...

"Fluffy, don't be like that to Oppa... Umma will get mad..." I whispered to Fluffy.

"So you're the mother of Fluffy?" Yi Xing asked while laughing.

"Then... can I be the father?" Yi Xing asked.

Sorry, but no... Se Hun is Fluffy's appa.... I suddenly remembered the "dog date" I had with Se Hun and Fluffy one cold midnight.

I terribly miss Se Hun even if he's just in front of me. 

Fluffy began dragging me to Se Hun's seat. Se Hun smiled at Fluffy.

Sigh. That smile...I melted..

For a brief moment, Se Hun glanced at me.

My heart skipped. 

I miss you, I miss you.... Please... I really want to talk to you..

Loving you is probably hundreds of thousands more difficult than not seeing you..

Darn, Se Hun... Why can't we be?

I took Fluffy in my arms. 

"Joo Young, tonight..." Se Hun whispered in my ear as I handed Fluffy over to him..

He called me by my first name... That means a lot... Wait... what is he trying to say again....tonight.. what..?

"Joo Young, tonight.. can.. " He whispered...

THEN Yi Xing Oppa had to cut it. Yi Xing Oppa pulled me away from Se Hun. 

"JOO YOUNG-AH! Look.. I've got to show you something..."Yi Xing Oppa said.

I looked back at Se Hun,

but it's too late...

He already went inside the house..

---END OF CHAPTER 48----

[A/N: I apologize for the dragging... and all that drama stuff...Hihihi... I just don't want it to be fluffy all the time... LOL. But I might do a double update... Haha.. Darn... Joo Hun couple... By the way, I've been getting comments about the possibility being featured soon..hihiii. (laughing face) me? featured? OMO. the featured works ARE HELLA GOOD AND HELLA SUBSCRIBED... lols. .... but thank you for the support.... Thank you very much. I just realized that I've been writing this fic for a month now... Haha.. Time flies..]