Joo Young's Perspective
[A/N: THIS IS A LONG CHAPTER. BEWARE]
>>> JOO YOUNG'S POV<<<
That "silent" phone call pushed me to make an indirect confession to Se Hun.
"I cried today not because I miss you, no, not just that. I cried today because I realized that I'm gonna be alright with you. Could you at least hold on to that?"
I said those words because I realized that I want to be with Se Hun.
Yes, I want to be with him. My heart has never ached for someone before.
I'm going to wait for him.
But a part of me is scared.
I'm scared to know what he feels for me.
What if I'm nothing to him?
>>> My phone started to ring again.<<<
It was Mr. Soo Man calling me.
"Yes, Mr. Soo Man?" I asked.
"Joo Young, why don't you try looking for your parents?" He asked all of a sudden.
There was a short pause.
"Uhh, Seongsangnim, I.. I don't think they want to see me again." I answered.
"Well, I've got news for you." He continued.
"I know where your parents live." Mr. Soo Man added.
I honestly felt nothing special when he said that he knows where my parents are.
"Where do they live now?" I asked.
"CHINA." He replied.
For a second, my heart's beating raced. CHINA? They're in China? Se Hun's also in China... I must... I must go.
"I've booked a flight for you tomorrow. You'll stay there for two days. You have a 6 PM flight. Jinri will take a leave to accompany you. So you're gonna see your parents, and discuss things with them. If they allow you to stay in Korea, then it's good. However, if they decide to get you back, then it's your choice." Mr. Soo Man said.
"Arasso. Kamsahamnida" I replied.
Then we hung up.
Weee. I'm going to China tomorrow and see Se Hun.
And about my parents, I'm not so sure if I want to see them again.
Just the thought of those two makes me really quite sad.
Tomorrow, all my painful tears will be gone.
Two weeks of waiting is over.
I suddenly recalled what happened to me when Se Hun left.
During the first night without Se Hun, I cried buckets of tears. I barely studied for my test.
Why would he leave without saying?
I tired to calm myself down by going to the balcony and stargazing.
I felt depression climbing up my system.
Dear Se Hun, I hate the stars because I look at the same ones as you do, without you beside me.
When will Se Hun come back?
I'll wait patiently even if I know that the pain will become unbearable.
One week passed. Se Hun's not here yet.
I'm not giving up. I'll wait. Forever.
EXO seemed to notice my sadness.
So they gave me a dog. Yes, a dog.
They gave me a dog to play with, to try to keep the sadness away.
Thank you EXO.
[A/N: Check out their MV (1:53-1:54) and you'll see the white fluffy dog!]
But even with the fluffy dog around, I can't seem to forget Se Hun.
I never slept on the bed while he's away.
'Cause sleeping on the bed just reminded me of that "cold night" when he put me to sleep.
Argh. I think I'm going crazy. Distance.
Distance: It's either he'll miss me or forget me.
And that's how painful it is.
How can my heart ache like this?
Se Hun, what are you doing to my heart?
So it's true. The ones you love the most are the ones who can hurt you the most.
Then I remebered this one night, (while Se Hun's still away...), somebody called me.
He had the voice of a gentle angel.
"Who is this?" I asked.
"Lu Han." He replied.
OMO. Lu Han? Isn't he the best friend of Se Hun? Alright, Joo Young, calm down.
"Lu Han? Are you The Lu Han?" I asked again.
"Yeah. This is Joo Young, right?" He asked.
"Yes." I replied.
"So you're the wife of my buddy Se Hun?" Lu Han asked me.
"Uhh, fake wife." I answered.
"My buddy seems to have a problem. Can you help me?" He asked.
"I'm the problem. He's probably mad at me. He left without saying a word." I told Lu Han.
"No, of course not....." He told me.
I smiled. Is this guy an angel? He seems really kind.
"May I ask why you called?" I asked Lu Han.
"Hmm. Nah.. I just wanted to sort-of-meet my buddy's wifey..." Lu Han responded.
"Is Se Hun doing alright there?" I can't help but ask.
"So you care about Se Hun..." Lu Han mentioned.
"Lu Han... I trust you. Please please don't tell Se Hun. " I begged.
"Why can't I tell him that you care about him?" He asked.
"Erm... that's because he doesn't like me anyway." I answered.
Lu Han laughed.
"Don't worry. I won't tell him." He said.
..... And that was the end of our conversation. I believe that Lu Han's an angel. I've never met him, but there's something so angelic and kind in his voice that I trust.
As the days passed without Se Hun, my heart became more and more crushed.
I fear that Se Hun doesn't like me back.
But Se Hun, please tell me that the feeling is mutual.
Or life would be pointless.
I don't know why people call it a heartbreak, because to me, it seems that every part of my body is broken too.
I don't mind waiting, but what if I'm waiting for someone who will never come back?
Just like trying to find someone who never wants to be found.
>>>MEGA FAST FORWARD<<<
I just arrived in China.
Se Hun, I shall finally see you.
But first, I have to see my parents....
the parents who abandoned me.....
I think I just agreed to go to China because of Se Hun.
I know that using my parents as an excuse is wrong.
But I want to take a risk, just today.
[A/N: Thank you to Carla (minnie_15) for the dog suggestion!
if you noticed, I shifted the POV from Se Hun to Joo Young.. Don't you worry about the JOO HUN couple. Next chapter will be...hu-hum. Se Hun's in Korea while Joo Young's in China. HAHAHAHA. I feel evil.
Dear fellas, I love love love reading your comments (especially the ones in ALL CAPS)
Sooo funnyy. Teehee. But today, I'm sick. -_-....
By the way, can you guys help me? I want to download the MV, but I don't know how... :( AIGOO.]
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