I stomped about ignoring Jen and everything else for the next few days.  Eventually though I did turn up at her apartment, and I apologised for being childish, after a lot of pushing from Jonghyun telling me to do the right thing. 

I had a few photoshoots to go with my solo album release and then we were back in Japan for the end of the tour before we knew it.  Jen didn’t come this time, and neither did Sarah, but we would be performing in Hanoi a few days after our last show in Japan, so I arranged that I would meet Jen there. 

It was a big show, a lot of different bands were performing, which included Exo.

We met at the hotel the night before the show and then Jen and Sarah came backstage with us the day of the show.  Sarah disappeared with Kyungsoo pretty quickly, and I seemed to be pretty busy that I wasn’t sure exactly where Jen was at all times. 

I was in the changing room alone when Na-eun came in.

‘Hi Taemin’ she chirped at me. 

‘Hey Na-eun,’ I vaguely said as she came in and made her way over to me.  I hadn’t really seen her in a long time and to be honest I wasn’t that bothered that much, but I tried to be friendly and professional when I did see her. 

‘What can I do for you?’ I asked her. 

She walked over to me and put her arms around my neck. 

‘What?’ I spluttered, shocked.

‘What can I do for you is the question.’ She said.

 ‘Come on Taemin, it’s supposed to be you and me.  We are more right for each other than you and that fat white woman’ she said grabbing my backside and pulling me into her, pressing her lips and her body against me again.

It lasted less than a second but as I broke away from her and looked over her shoulder I saw Jen stood there, her eyes open wide, in shock, before I knew it she had her heel and vanished. 

I looked down at the stupid girl still trying to manhandle me.

‘Stop it Na-eun I told her angrily pushing her off me.  ‘I’ve never wanted you and I never will’.

‘That’s what you say Taemin, but I think differently.  I see the way you look at me’ she giggled.  She always annoyed me.  Too ‘cute’ and childish, and always playing up, especially for the cameras when we did that awful show together.  I can’t believe I once thought I did like her. I don’t know where she got this ridiculous notion I was ACTUALLY interested in her now, not after all this time.  

I got very close to her and told her in a low and calm voice. ‘You’re disgusting.’ I pushed past her, hearing her scoff behind me and ran out the room to try and find Jen. 

She would listen and understand.  This wasn’t my fault.  Wouldn’t she?  I started to doubt myself. 

I ran through the corridors. She wouldn’t be here in any of these dressing rooms, she wasn’t friendly with any one in them. 

I started to panic, what if she was with him again.  They were still too close and I didn’t like it.  I didn’t like that I wasn’t the only one she was close too.  I didn’t like that she told him things she wouldn’t tell me.  We had been fighting about it so much recently that my guilt about Na-eun coming onto me started to disappear and I started to get angry.  I stomped my