So guys, actually I'm back to writing ff again after a long damn hiatus. Well in the past I used to write bunch of seoexo ship themed ff but none of them were actually completed cuz of my lazy self that just don't want to continue them any longer. But well since I kinda have the longing to write ff so I decided to challenge myself and write a new one. And actually since the departs of our few lovely members *cry* well yeah I kinda realized that seoexo ships doesn't sailed that much these days especially seohan that I really loved❤ I'm a hardcore acebabies yall know but yeah I just missed the feel tho... If u don't understand what I'm saying then u better get ready for some btch cuz Imma serve u some feel of them old seohan feels *ohyass*

Btw actually I'm a hardcore A.R.M.Y tho but my inner acebabies will NEVER DIE, and maybe someday I also gonna write a bangtan themed ff tho if u guys want it, if u don't then imma just cry silently by the corner, don't find me, I'm gloomy... 

Weelll so long for the chit-chat let's just get straight in to the description!

2010, This was the very last time I remembered that I ever met him. Not remembering the date or months for specifically but I do remember our last moment. It was on that day that my heart broke for the second time. There was this boy, his name is Luhan. He's my friend and he's a boy, obviously. Luhan was the person that I met at the Taekwondo Academy. At that time I was so shy and don't really have much activities to do so my mom kinda forced me to join the lesson just for me to learn new stuffs and maybe meet some new friends there. Luhan was so kind and friendly, he approached me and willingly teachs me some moves that I can't do just to get closer with me. Me being the stubborn girl I always be, will always ended up ignoring him whenever he was trying to talk to me every rest time or that day when he gave me a chocolate from his trips with his parents to Australia, yeah I just throwed it into the trash can. 

Each day passed and I ended up finding myself so close with him that I always literally spend most of my time with him, neither on the phone, message or hanging with him every weekend. It was so much fun for a 10 years old kid like me. But then, a tragedy happened. Both of my parents died on a car crash when I was at school. I remembered Luhan was there to support me, he always there to keep me in company, he never left me alone even when I was crying by myself after the funeral, he choose to stayed with me and ended up carrying me on his back because I don't have anymore strength left to walk, I remembered the way he always say "It's okay, don't cry" but everytime he said that I'll always ended up crying more and he will sing me my favorite song just to keep me calm. 

I remembered all of it. But unfortunately he has to left me too. He have to go to America because of his father's business. It was at that day I decided to hate myself. Why I have to lose everyone that I deared the most? Why the world is so cruel to me?! Have I ever done anything wrong just to deserves all of this?! I'm just so upset that after receiving the news, I abruptly ended my call with Luhan and ran outside the house to the nearest lake. I threw my phone in to the lake and continue to keep running like a crazy person I ended up getting hit by a motorcycle and was hospitalized for some bruise on my body but luckily nothing major happened to me. But the real scars will always kept remain. The scars of my heart. With my wounded heart I decided to lock myself to any other people. And promised to my own that I will never loved someone again or trust somebody to even love me, because I'm too afraid that the same scars will open again.