On a piece of ripped paper
I wrote down how I feel about you
It becomes clear somethin’ bout you

Taeyeon still looking at her girlfriend who finally asleep on her arms. After a long awkward silence before, they decided to postponed everything

Everything regarding of their future

Never once crossed on Taeyeon’s mind, her fool thing with Tiffany affected Jessica so much. Even if Jessica and Tiffany is being best friend again, Taeyeon was trying so hard for keeping some distance with the American girl. It not just for Jessica but also for Taeyeon herself

Taeyeon examined every single thing of Jessica. Her beautiful face, her steady breath, her whine when she’s tired and her jealousy issue

Everything about Jessica is part of Taeyeon. Can Taeyeon being selfish?

No, Taeyeon already being selfish from the start. When Jessica once said that the relationship could be nowhere, Taeyeon didn’t understand

Now, she’s understand

Why Jessica wanted to have a space between them? Is Jessica being bored of her, again?

Taeyeon hope for no, as they just back from a big fight a while ago. Taeyeon promised for herself, for Jessica, to be the best Taeyeon

Can everything just be fine?

Yeah you’re similar to me but different
I wonder if you’re the same as me now
I get my hopes up

Taeyeon can’t sleep, at all. When she’s asleep for about 10 minutes, she will be awaking as soon as possible

Because she’s afraid if Jessica leave her

Is this feeling that Jessica felt almost every day? Feeling loss of Taeyeon’s presence?

When a day, a month, a year passes
We each live different lives

On the middle of examining Jessica’s face, Taeyeon had a deep thought

What if Jessica and her never meet each other? Can they enjoy their live, a day, a month and a year passes?

What if Jessica isn’t Taeyeon’s world? Can Taeyeon being happy and unsure like now?

Taeyeon hates the ‘what if’s’ to be exact, but is it the reality? Taeyeon isn’t sure too

I’m not like that
It won’t be easy for me
You keep taking up every day of my life
It’s not time yet
I keep repeating it to myself like a fool
I can’t swallow the words that are in my mouth
It’s not fine
Ah- Ah- Ah- Ah- It’s not fine

The alarm is ringing, Taeyeon looked up to find Jessica extended her arm to turned the alarm off. When their eyes met, Jessica can’t hide her worries about Taeyeon’s red eyes

“Were you, crying all the night?” Jessica asked as her thumb running on Taeyeon’s face, caressing it gently

“I just… can’t sleep” Taeyeon closes her eyes when Jessica caressing her cheek

“Why?”

“I don’t know”

“You have a schedule?”

“Yes, recording” said Taeyeon while Jessica moves another arm to Taeyeon’s waist “At 10 o’clock”

“Here, have some sleep” Jessica pulled Taeyeon into her, let the older girl inhaled deeply her scent and slowly soft snore is heard from Taeyeon

 Jessica nudged Taeyeon’s shoulder and the girl looks like really tired. She doesn’t move

Jessica pressed her lips, realizing that Taeyeon might be having bad night yesterday. She took her girlfriend’s phone, typing the password and search the particular contact. She pressed the dial button and wait for the other line pick it up

“Kenzie Unnie?”

I tie my hair up
And I clean my messy room
I’m looking for somethin’ new

Luckily, some of the producers also being exhausted and Kenzie agreed for postponed the recording for about 5 hours. Enough for Taeyeon to sleep

Jessica slowly pulled herself from Taeyeon and dashing out from their bedroom. She’s cleaning their house, as in it’s been so long s