Hi! I'm Park Jiyeon and I did something I shouldn't have. I fell in love with my best friend. It wasn't his fault though. He did nothing to lead me on. He was just there, existing, and I fell hard.

It was a typical love-hate story, we bickered a lot but we were inseparable. You see, we grew up next to each other. We were neighbors and our mothers were best of friends so our families did everything together, from birthdays to vacations, we did it together. He was a year older than me so he was a bit of overprotective and acted like my big brother who'd always reprimand me which annoys me so much. He loves lecturing me about the things I shouldn’t be doing as a girl as if he was my dad.  I mean even my father does not nagged as much as he does plus it’s not as if he is way older than me.  It’s just a year, what does he know that I don’t?  Aish, what an annoying fellow.  But then he'd always be there whenever I need him. Like when my parents got divorced and I cried a whole week, he was there making me smile.

What started out as an innocent friendship grew into something more. It all started when we went to high school that I started noticing things changing. For some unknown reason he went to School of the Performing Arts in Seoul. And I followed him there which is probably the worst decision I’ve ever made. I should have never went there. First off I wasn't really into acting or music or any kind of arts for that matter so getting accepted was very hard. I remember cramming learning how to play musical instruments and learning how to sing and stuff. Up until today it was still a wonder how I passed. So when I got in it surprised everybody including my mother. She then started teasing me saying that I followed him there because I liked him.  That was the first time I heard such crazy idea.  “Him?  I like him?  I know too much about him to not like him.”  I told myself that, I mean I tried to convince myself that.  My mother was not wrong on one point though, I did follow him but not because I like him (or at least at that point, I haven’t realized it yet).  I fell into one of his traps.  He loves teasing and daring me to do things and I love proving him wrong.  One day I was teasing and laughing at him on why he choose to SOPA and how absurd the idea that he wanted to be an actor and enter showbiz.  He said that I was laughing because I could never get in and that I didn’t have talent except playing videogames, basketball and judo.  I then applied to prove him wrong and the next thing I knew, I was fitting my uniform.  Argh, I really hate that color. 

On hindsight, if I didn’t get accepted, none of these would have happened.  If I didn’t learn that the reason he went to SOPA was to follow his first love, I wouldn’t have to leave just to forget about these feelings, just to protect our friendship.  If only I didn’t fall for him…

But then I was always meant to fall in love with him.  I mean even other people who never really knew him falls for him.  How could I escape that especially if we are always together? I was just a mere mortal after all and he was Myungsoo, he was special.

And just like that, I have learned to accept my inevitable fate to fall in love with him, with my best friend. 

They say that the first step in solving any problem is to acknowledge them.  So now that I have acknowledged that I love him, the next step is to move on, right? 

Kaja Jiyeonnie, let’s move on! You can do this! (talks to self.)  Aish, how do you unlove a person?  I mean not completely, just enough for it be a platonic love?  If you know how, let me know, I’m desperate. T.T