The Life List

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Haneul feels like she's drowning. Not physically, but emotionally. People go through life like it's a wide open path. She used to do so too, until the path collapsed under her feet and she dropped into the icy waters beneath. She used to be so sure about who she was, but now she is just a cold apathetic empty shell, a ghost of her past. It isn’t fair. Her health is gone. Her father is gone. Yixing is gone. Her whole future is disintegrating by the hour and all Haneul can do is watch.

The life List

sometimes life is not fair

author's note: This is a story for rosy, based on her character for an applyfic I never wrote. It was supposed to be a drabble or even a short one shot, but this is what it turned into when I realized how this girl could allow for some rich character development. I hope rosy will like it and feel like it did her character justice, even though she submitted it so long ago. I took some liberties to better fit the plot. This story is supposed to pass the Bechdel-test, for those who find that kind of thing important. First chapter coming up as soon as I finish writing it.

tags: angst, romance, bitterweet, bucketlist, originalcharacter, applyficcharacter, application, yixing, lay, exo, illness, hope, wedding, life, death

warning: mention of death and illnesses

playlist: Taeyeon - Fine, Red Velvet - One of These Nights

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IsabelleT #1 Oct 9, 2018 10:02:14

Ohh I didn't realize you wrote another story! :D

rosymoon #2 Apr 13, 2017 13:26:18

Chapter 1: Aww, you just published this as I went online, haha!! : '))
I really like the setting you created with Hayul's wedding, it has a nice ring to it since I want Hayul to be happy! ;; She deserves the world for being this kind and forgiving and endearing towards Haneul, who's a real brat by the way. I also like that she was the one to contact Yixing and seemingly sent him the wedding invitation along with a copy of Haneul's bucket list? She seems to have understood that she can't do anything about Haneul's agony and closing herself off, but someone else could possibly shake her up (and the best opportunity is possibly Yixing, who left her out of the blue.)

I also love how you portray Haneul in this, especially the words "a long whiny note full of animosity and despair". It could be that she doesn't rate them as whiny but the reader does, or even that she hates herself for whining so much in her diary... I also like that you mentioned the book coming from her father, it shows how scared she is off her own sickness and how much she still fears facing it after all this time.
(Reading this honestly made me remember how much of myself Haneul actually holds inside, so it was also some kind of a personal ride i went on while reading this.)

Yixing is my favourite character so far? You were worried about writing him because you never did before, but i can assure you that I really enjoy how honest and upfront he is and the mix of these and his kindness he shows so far, like, I honestly imagine the real Xingxing to act like that if something like that happened to his lover (let's hope it never will, though) because of how often he said that he'd fight for his love and his lover and protect them with whatever he had if something occured??

I really love you for writing this, it seems beautiful how you make all of these characters come to life and remembers me of the reasons for you to be one of my favourite authors. Your writing style is very smooth and expressive and carries and conveys the feelings of each character very, very well. You have the might to create pictures in people's heads and use them wisely, Di. : '))

rosymoon #3 Apr 11, 2017 09:43:42

I love you, di.
Always remember that. : ')