24/7
10th MemberI wake up in the morning and I feel sad.....
I'm sad Twice doesn't win in the music show. I'm sad remembering all the meanie comments about us. I try to sing well, but it seems like I don't make any improvement. Schedule is still so tight, we still need to perform with all the bad judgements from people. Many things that I have been planned are ruined too. I feel so terrible. I'm afraid I need more time to sleep. But it's impossible to do that..........
I've woken up by this damn alarm. Even while still half-waking up, I check my phone like a messed up person. I feel so terrible. 24/7. But at least, I'm not the only one, right?
I'm glad my friends are still here. Not in their best shape, but okay. The other people that we work with are still here too. Interacting with them makes me less lonely. But, to be honest, sometimes I miss the peaceful moment when I can just be with myself. But yeah, I shouldn't think like that. I'm not hating my job. I'm just..... Sad.
Time goes so slow when I'm sad.....
Let's just do it! Stop worrying and back to the reality. Don't think or feel, just do. If the plans fail again, just improvise. Ah, thinking like this makes me feel better. Yup, I'm totally fine!
......for now.
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