the transience of forever
Description
she seeps into his present as if she never left and he is stuck picking up the pieces he had so tried so hard to keep together. he watches her shadow lurk his life constantly, her impermanence tattooed perpetually in his mind. he wonders how a person who has far since left, still could create and maintain such a gaping hole in his heart. he wonders if it could ever be restored, if his heart could one day be repaired back to how it used to be, and he is reminded that not all that is broken can be fixed.
Foreword
when taehyung first realised the brewing fondness that he had grown for her, he figured maybe this is what it meant to fall into someone else. he learnt to love her toes, her fingers, her quirkiness and her dimples. he learnt to love her sleeping habits and her bad dancing. he learnt to love her dreams and her childhood stories. at some point later, he realised he might eventually love this girl forever.
when he found out, by chance, that someone like that, someone he loves more than he could ever love anything or anyone, holds within her a piece of him, it felt as if the world had stopped moving. as if finally, something is going right, it’s going well. when taehyung found out she was pregnant, it made him as happy as he ever was. taehyung loves children, he had always wanted kids of his own. the thought of having them with the person of his life, it made everything perfect, the way nothing else can.
it never occured to him she never wanted any of that.
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