Fortunately... Shinhwa is... six.

I had kept that mindset for almost 20 years.

I was looking into them right now, my best friends, my little-brothers. They had my heart, my body, and my soul. I guaranteed them my whole life.

I parted my heart into 6 pieces. 1 for me, and 5 for each members. One sixth was already full enough, I had no more space. To love anybody else but my parents and my fans.

I hadn't gave up about marriage. But lately I thought : it was okay.

Someday one of them would return one sixth part of my heart and get married. Then the next member. Then the third... I would watch them from away with fatherly smile. I didn't need marriage to have father-like feeling!

When people asked us about our fear, I answered that I always afraid being alone. Even when I had 5 best-friends sat beside me, I was afraid leaving alone.

Slap me, hit me, but don't leave me.

I had left them once, when I got enlisted to military. Someday, they would leave me.

I thought I would cry when my father called me from States. With wrong reason, the fear gnawed me from inside.

My brothers had grown into mature men, I believed they could take care each other without I got involved.

They wouldn't leave me alone.

I would.

I really would be the first who married.