1 What hurts the most
Siwon, Yesung ,Heechul, Hangeng, Donghae, Eunhyuk
Summary: The story is about a serious car accident, in which three of the members will be injured. It portrays how jealousy can blind you and how much can love hurt if it´s not returned.
The story: The relationships in the group are rather complicated and will change through the story, There will be heartbreaks, reunions, fluffy moments and pretty much anything you can think of :D I am also a big fan of hurt/comfort so be prepared for a lot ot physical and psychological torturing. This was originally supposed to be a christmas present for my friends who gave me some ideas about what they would like to read in the fanfiction. So I would like to mention @Samabel013, @TheSmileofTeuk and @janka410/@jankacz4. - you can find them on twitter. They provided a great inspiration for the story so thank you :)
Disclaimer: I only own my creativity and kinky mind. Anything else belongs to their rightful owners. Although, I wish I could have Siwon as my slave :P
Warnings: malexmale, depressing
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Siwon is secretly in love with Hangeng but he has never admitted it to anyone. When Hangeng decides to leave SJ he is deeply hurt. After everything that Hangeng had to go through, he thought now is the time when everything will finally be okay. He didn´t expect hangeng´s decision but after hearing his reasons he understood why he wanted to leave and also realized the solo career would be better for the older man, but he couldn´t help the way he felt. He wanted Hangeng by his side. It took him a few months to get over the shock and pain. He came into a conclusion it´s god's punishment for being too greedy and for having sinister thoughts. Hangeng was his friend, a fellow member and that should be enough. He could share his joy with him and provide support for the other. Why did he start to think about telling him how he feels? Why did he start to dream about them being more than friends? He should have known better. Soon after Hangeng left, he threw himself into his work; did one project after another and pushed himself to the point, when he would immediately fall asleep after arriving home. Too exhausted to think about anything. It was very painful, but he is a good actor and when other noticed his smile is a little bit too awkward and his laugh a little bit too fake, they thought it´s because of the long hours and busy schedule. However slowly, he accepted the reality and started to deal with it. He still missed him but they wrote to each other from time to time and Siwon decided to focus more on his career. For a while, a very short period of time, he actually started to feel alright. His smile was genuine and he could laugh for real. Then the director for international affairs called him...
* The root of the word "passion" is the Latin word "passio" which means "suffering."
If you think being in love, it's a nice feeling, try loving someone who doesn't love you back ... and even if you are in a relationship with the one, you care about and he cares about you, there will still be misunderstandings, hurtful words, doubts and jealousy. Love is not easy, it brings desparation and longing; but we fall in love anyway, because no matter how much we suffer, we still hope our story will have a happy ending.
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