He smiles every day. He shows his bold and daring personality each day. Everyone look at him and see an explosion of energy. That’s a part of his personality, always positive and buoyant. He is strong and faces each of challenge with head up. He experienced hardness in life. There are times when life feel like it turns his back against him, yet he always looking forward for tomorrow, believing tomorrow will be a better day than today. He has hope. Maybe that’s the core distinct between his situation now and before. Every night in the past he chanted that tomorrow will be better and went to sleep. This day, before he closes his eyes, he doesn’t know what to hope. He can’t see an end to this circle. He can’t see himself being happy, smiling freely to mirror his heart for his heart was tattered and bruised. He’s in the brink of broken with each day passed. It’s torture to watch her day by day, concern to every little thing she does. At the same time, it’s another hell not to steal a glimpse of her whenever he could. It’s ironic, how him, Kim Jongkook, the man that always capable, crumble on his knees and relentlessly fight a battle he could never win.