Home (Is the Last Place I Want to Be)


Chanyeol is straight. Baekhyun is gay. They're bestfriends and Chanyeol wants to keep it that way.







“Do you think we’ll still stay friends after this?”

“Of course.”

“I kinda want us to drift apart.”

“Wait, what? But why?”

“So that I can forget my feelings for you.”

A pause followed, trailed by the humdrum of waves crashing into the shore.

“You still like me huh.”

“Honestly. You never developed feelings for me?”

“I’m straight, Baek. You know that.”

“No. Look past through that. If I were a girl, or if you were a girl, or if this world didn’t have the concept of gender, would you have developed feelings for me?”


“I’m not asking you to love me. Maybe this is just my ego talking, maybe because I think I’m not good enough for someone I love. I just want to know. If we lived different lives, will you have loved me?”

“Let me throw that question back at you: If I were a girl, or if you were a girl, or if I were somebody else, would you have developed feelings for me?”

“If you care for me like what you did in all these years, if you smile like your usual smile, if you stay with me like how you did every time I had a hard time, then yes. I would have.”

Chanyeol was speechless.

 “You haven’t answered my question.”

“Let’s just say I believe in an infinite number of universes. And somehow, somewhere out there, I believe we’re in love with each other.”

“I see.”

“I love you, Baek. Believe me. But not in the way that you want me.”



A/N: This was originally planned to be posted on ChanBaek Day but I got busy lmao This will be my last ChanBaek fic in a while. I'll be branching out to other ships in my next stories. 

Also, I would like to dedicate this story to those who died in the Orlando Pulse Club shooting recently. They didn't deserve the hate that the world gave them. #LoveIsLove

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0 points #1
Chapter 2: God... that's just so beautiful ㅠㅠ ㅠㅠ ㅠㅠ
reiyohiru 0 points #2
Chapter 2: That's .. a lot of feeling for one shot.
Reread this and I'm still hurt. I honestly love the ending :)
bronzyspring #4
Chapter 2: Finally had some time to spend for this story and I actually ended up reading it twice because I love every single word you typed in this story. Every word means so much more that its actual meaning. I love the pace, I love the ending, I love Chanyeol's character and I love how well you portray Baekhyun's dreams and ambition. You did so well. This is truly a gem. I will come back to reread this again. Thank you for writing and have a good day ?
Chapter 2: It's so beautiful. Sometimes I just love to read sad ending stories. Because not everything we want, we will get. Because not everyone got a happy ending in their life. Because doesn't mean if we love someone, that someone must love us back. Because doesn't mean if we love each other, we must be together forever. Sometimes things better end with a sad ending.

I admit, baekhyun is a little bit selfish here. Because of his feelings, a precious friendship just end like that. But somehow I understand what baekhyun's feels. It's not like he really want to end their friendship. He really can't continue it anymore because his feelings just got too deep. That he scared he will do something that he really regret.

Moved away is really a great idea to move on from someone. For me, it is. It will take time, of course, but as you become busy and make new friends, learning new culture, you will tend to forget little by little.

Again. This story is so beautiful. I'm glad I get to read something as beautiful as this. Makes me learned something new ^^

Well I don't know what this comment is really bout. I'm sorry for my long comment ㅠㅠ thank you for this fic ^^
kwankljr #6
Chapter 2: my heart is crying ,_,
thank you for writing this story
i’m really grateful that i have read this.
thank you for reminding me of letting things go?
40 streak #7
Chapter 2: I'm sad TT^TT. But this is the reality . Not all happened have happy ending
baeklattee #8
Chapter 2: Can I go to corner and cry?? God...
Chapter 2: It's one of the best stories I ever read on AFF. Usually I prefer happier fics, but this one was totally worth it!