I could feel the sensation was nearly there. I felt that the pleasure already consumed all my soul and if I wasn’t aware enough, I could possibly sold my soul out to him. But nothing compared to the feel of sudden guilty when I remembered my parent’s face and I knew it was all wrong.

I gasped when I stop the motion he did and suddenly pushed him away from me. He looked so surprise and the lust immediately went away from his face. I didn’t want to disappoint him but more likely I didn’t want to disappoint my parents and especially myself.

I shook my head and we didn’t need much talk after that. He surely knew. .

 

I wasn’t ready for this. 

“So, what so important to tell me now?” He pointed out his question.

I sipped my lemon juice a while before replied him, “I need your advice,”

He looked at me in confusion. He lifted one of his brow, “Advice?”

I nodded to him.

“I didn’t know that now you see me as a counselor or something?”

I supposed to laugh a bit at his lame joke but I was so nervous to relax my nerves so I just grinned at him. He chuckled.

“Seriously, it’s emergency,”

“So . .” I started to tell him but I actually still did not find any words to start the story. I thought about it so many times. Should I tell him? I asked it so many times. But I could not just keep silence because things was already getting worse and I should fix it in no time. I tried to find anyone else but only his name popped out in my mind. He definitely could keep a secret, couldn’t he? Afterall, he was one of the people that I trust the most.

“So something happen recently,” I said. His eyes twitched but he could not hide his confused look in front of me. “What happen?”

“Sehun and I. We almost did it,”

He scratched the back of his neck nervously. He might think of how awkward it is right now but I won’t stop because this case was already being my big concern and I need someone to help me get through it.

“Seriously, first of all, it is weird,” he finally said. He looked so flustered and so did I. “You should know this conversation is actually really private. I never imagine to talk about this with someone else especially with you. Really. I don’t want to imagine things here and there. It’s just. . it’s just. . didn’t you feel weird to have this kind of talk with your ex-boyfriend?”

“You know that I’m more like a conservative person in this kind of situation but I didn’t want to lost my parents’ faith in me. At the same time I was scared that Sehun might not accept the way I think,” I heaved another deep breath, “We didn’t talk about it after that. We avoided it as I can feel that both of us were so scared just to talk about it. We acted like nothing happen when it actually consume our mind. Without realizing, it already happened for a week after that and we became much awkward,”

He grumbled and he brought his body towards the table again. “You’re thinking too much,” he said. I looked at him in confusion. “It’s not a big deal. You can just tell Sehun right away. I am sure he already knows how you and your parents see that in a conservative way. Let alone the fact that Sehun was known as jerk before. From what I know, he surely become a gentleman when he’s with you. I don’t think he was chasing after you for something like that. If it almost happened, I am sure it was because both of you was carried  away by the feeling and  the situation of whatever happen before you got yourself in that steamy action,”

“Then what should we do?” I asked him again.

“Easy. One of you just need to start to discuss about it. That kind of situation could not be resist in a relationship especially you’re not in the age of innocence anymore. Both of you are adult and the hot young blood in you has just heated up recently."

“Geez, you sound like my father,” I suddenly told him and he just chuckled. I felt the current situation ever happened before when my father caught Baekhyun and me before.

“Yeah, because I’m your oppa now, I’ll try to act more like your father,” he simply said. “And just like what your father suggested me before,” he looked at me and grinned, “If you really can’t resist it . . .” he halted.

I looked at him in anticipation.

“ . . . then just get married already!” he nearly shouted at his words.

He startled me and I was flustered.

Me? Getting married? To Oh Sehun? Oh my, my.

Of course we both are in an official relationship now. We are not backstreet or being an affair now. We both admit that we have the same feelings and more than that, we love each other. We surely hope that nothing in this world will changes the fact and we won’t like something worst happen between us. Yes, we are adults now and we can legally get married in no time soon. What are we waiting for actually? I questioned myself. I found no reason not to getting married to him anyway.

But to truthfully said, if it is about getting married, are we really ready yet?

May be . . .

I just need to find out.