Soonyoung's mind was a list of never ending contradictions, should he or shouldn't he? Could he or could he not? Did they care of did they not care one bit? Everything had become a push and pull, nothing was certain anymore, the only thing that stayed consistant was the gray blanket that had wrapped itself around his exhausted mind and had taken away his smile. He loved it, he hated it, he wanted to be saved and yet was scared to lose the embrace the gray ache enclosed him in. Maybe he needed a harsh awaking, someone to shake him from the hole he had found himself in, maybe in the form of a snappish cotton candy haired man?

[This is a university based AU though the AU's exact details may change and develop later on into the fanfiction, the fanfiction will be continued further if feedback suggests that it is wanted]

[Warning: Triggering themes. Depression, attempted suicide and implied self harm. Reader's discretion is advised! This has only not been rated M so people can decide themselves whether they are okay with these themes prior to reading]