Continuation.................ok.... ideas are coming crazy... i need to align and arrange them .... hmm...so let's begin...

Obediently, Taeyang stops the car in the middle of both an empty vast terrain of nothingness. Kibum going out of the car, raises his head up and takes a quick glance of his surrounding, shakes his head and says quietly, “This gotta be pure coincidental” – wordlessly enters and sits at the front sit area. 

Kibum:             Thanks… (fastening the seat belt he further says) Mr. Taeyang, have we passed this road 
                        before?

                     Taeyang:          A couple of times Bummie (so he wonders as regards Kibum’s query and silently takes a
                                              deep breath and further waits)

Kibum:             (nonchalantly speaks) this is like in the middle of nowhere, do you feel how empty and cold
                        it is – it sends shivers down my spine… (abruptly turns to Taeyang direction and says)  Mr.
                        Taeyang… I… (Instinctively clenches his fists)  I… I wish…. (inhales and exhales huffily)
                        Mr. Taeyang, can we stop I need to get out – I need to think…

Taeyang:         (without hesitation) Yes, Bummie…

As Taeyang hurriedly stops the car still in the middle of nowhere, Bummie goes out and runs in a fairly distance away from the car. As he reaches the place where he finds comfortably suitable, he stops for a moment to stare the gray environment and incautiously sits on the ground. He closes his eyes and tries to center his focus and analyzes this emotional experience – rationalizing if there is a need to linger in this current state.

Trying to put a strong front hold - resisting the inner anguish he describes creeping slowly into his veins. In a powerful conviction, he affirms that he is alright with what is going on – shaking his head discounting the approaching realization of disturbing sentiments, he decides to ignore. Judging his feeling of somewhat attaining a clear state of mind, he gets up and decides to shout a call for Taeyang… so he does…

“Minho!”

And instantly whispers… “Taemin!”  huh? Why on earth?

Surprised by the names he just uttered – his legs shaken willingly falls on the ground. Taeyang who has been watching him in full utmost concern runs towards where he is, the previous adamant Bummie freely accepts his help, “Bummie, be fine” he said…

                      Kibum:             Thanks Mr. Taeyang, I am alright…

Taeyang:         (who anxiously been waiting for the perfect timing – gently offers a soft smile towards
                        Kibum, saying) I am not sure with your statement that you are alright… Please do not 
                        hesitate to tell me what is bothering you – If I may solicit this is regarding your upcoming 
                        parting to the people you hold dear to your heart, is it?

Hearing Taeyang predicted statements; Kibum noiselessly nods in agreement – still without a word he lifts his head and looks at Taeyang with sad eyes and swiftly turns his face to switch in a subdued mood slightly glowering through the empty vast land.

Kibum:             Mr. Taeyang, I have never imagined to be this painful. Though clearly, I have instilled in my
                        mind that all of my actions and ideas are based on practical reasons and knowledge,
                        instead of emotions.

                        I thought all the while which I strongly confirmed that I can manage when the time comes
                        but… to leave everything behind to move further onward, it suddenly occurs to me that
                        though without a doubt I can see the road is clear for me to step forward – this heavy
                        feeling of wretchedness burdens me.

Taeyang:         (watching Kibum intensively replies) I do understand how you feel Bummie. My only hope
                        is that – you take things lightly as possible. I have faith in the people around you – I know
                        how deeply you cherish them; remember what you have told me before that there are
                        things in life that we can not prevent from happening…

Kibum:             (smiles) yeah, I remember that – spoken by a person with a carefree young mind. It is
                        pretty ironic ha?

                     Taeyang:         (carefully shakes his head) I beg to disagree with your statement Bummie, I have never
                                             met a person other than your parents who speaks in the truest sense, in spite of who how
                                             marvelous you are, you are down to earth person who effortlessly demonstrates how to 
                                             maneuver life’s travesties in various aspects. You may have not noticed what you have
                                             been doing due to the fact that it has become natural of you to respond.

Kibum:             (sighs huffily) yeah, perhaps am way acting too rationalistic having to find something to 
                        replace destiny. Or I am just finding a way to escape the other aspect of reality. I am not
                        trying to avoid the previously foreseeable destiny being already there.

                        I have made quite a clear focused confirmation of what I have, need and must do – it’s just
                        that I never thought somewhere along the way, there are people and things I need to
                        sacrifice – it is quite intense, this heavy feeling that I am pretty new about – baffles me…

                         I never knew that this kind of feeling can be quite a scare….

Taeyang:         Just take it slow Bummie and don’t worry. I will always be here for and with you…no matter
                        what…

Kibum:             (lifts his face to turn at Taeyang’s direction and says) Mr. Taeyang, I am glad…

Taeyang lets Kibum be seated on the back to rest his weary head. So in silence, they head their way to the school; without Kibum’s knowledge, Taeyang watches him cautiously not because he does not trust his current state well being but to assure himself that he has finally accepted the reality he will soon be treading.

Meanwhile, Kibum in contemplation battling over a plan of whether letting Minho and Taemin know as soon as possible or the need of more time to think,

“I’m just not sure what to do then – I am so confused”

“Do I need to wait perhaps tomorrow or the day after, when I feel ready to talk?”

“Is my dream of significance?

“What is it trying to tell me…aaaiissshhh”

Thoughts he thinks…

Page 2 of Chapter 23 Ends here..... aaahh... me too... aaaiish my brain is swollen perhaps... i need a pad and a pen - scribble write my thoughts...i will
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