Hello!

It's been an awfully long time since I last updated, which is mainly because I was battling with this story. This story was something I needed to write... In order to move on. I like to be honest, especially when it comes to writing, and the thing is: I was battling with how to start and end, how to end and start. Honestly, there have always been a Sehun and Lu Han like the ones in this story inside of me, battling each other every single day. Beginnings and endings are such frightening monsters. This story needed to be written in order for me to let go of this persistent belief that I would betray anyone, anything, if I were to stop something. Amongst other things, writing about hunhan was getting heavy for me, because I didn't start writing about them out of desire to see them really together in real life. I started writing about them because I fell in love with their music, EXO as a group, and the fandom that comes along with it. I fell in love with this connection between Sehun and Lu Han. I fell in love with writing about these two personalities coming together. However, with Lu Han and Sehun living different lives right now, it's getting increasingly harder to keep on writing about them.

This story was a last chance to myself. A last chance to write something about them... And to move on.

I'm not certain when, but one day I'll stop writing about them. Even about EXO. It's inevitable. And it's a battle for me to keep on writing until everything is finished or to let it all go. After writing this story, I still feel the motivation to go on. This story was either my last piece or a driving force that keeps me going. Fortunately, it became the latter. I still feel like there are certain things I need to finish. It's still hard to let things go, but I think that's really life.

I'm certain we all have troubles starting and endings things in our lives. I'm certain that's alright. We'll be alright. Let's just remember that it's okay to not be okay sometimes.

All sad talk aside, this story really is just something I needed to write in order to understand what I was going through. If this story makes you think about your own life in any way, I hope it's in a good way. Always in a good way.

Sincerely,
Tinywings