love is nonsensical

Description

i hate crackships the most when i ship it like an otp.

this is one of those times.

forgive me, father, for i have sinned.

 

yoongi is basically a grandpa in a young man's body who thinks love is stupid (nonsensical) and he can't finish this piece of a song (a rap - mind you) until he finally meets his friend's boyfriend's friend (youngjae) and it all just explodes into nonsense and feelings and doubt and uncertainty.

 

i apologize to you for this work in progress.

forgive me, viewers, all one and a half of you.

Foreword

Love was nonsensical.

His mother and father called it quits when Yoongi was in his freshman year of high school, and like the weighted rock of a teenager he had become, he swallowed it down dry. It should have left a sour taste in his mouth - the fact that it didn’t? That should have bothered him, too.

You see, misfortunes befell him many times in life and maybe some three or four years ago he could have pretended to be concerned with the hollow shell he’d become regarding most everything. He could have pretended, alright – but Yoongi was no actor. Instead, the incidents became fuel to a fire within him. And if there was a word to describe the suffocating admiration he had for lyrics and for words – though he seldom used them charitably – he had not come across it in any dictionary. He was a warrior with words, a musician wielding rhymes.

Rapping gave him the closest sense of humanity that he had felt in a handful of years. He became alive, built himself a mask and armor with stories. For someone who ghosted his way through life, he’d built a bloodbath in the underground hip hop scene and collecting names was what he did best. It was with sweaty palms and labored breaths when he felt the most at ease with the world, for in those moments he didn’t need to face any kind of repercussions in regards to who he was.

 

Who was he, exactly?

If you ask his mother, he’s her pride and joy though she feels she has failed him to a certain extent; why does he not call home often on break? She raised him on her hip until he was old enough to distinguish the difference between ignorance and blissful unawareness. He was self-serving and in a sense, self-righteous. She put the weight of the failed marriage on her lackluster performance as a wife and mother while Yoongi tacked it to his father’s professional (and not too hidden) affair with his colleague.

If you ask his father, he’s a thick headed child who never outgrew that pestering stage of rebellion or the ‘blame it on dad’ phase. He had a few shining moments as a dad but for the most part, his role was covered by his wife – especially when his new assistant joined the firm. His father lacked any kind of pull on his son and how he acted and that realization pissed him off more than his actual failure at trying to parent should have. When he packed his things to leave after the papers were filed, Yoongi brought him an old sweater his father had given to him and neatly arranged it for him in his suitcase.

If you ask his friends, he’s the “misunderstood” sweetheart of the group. He lost a bet to Namjoon the first semester of his first year of college and in return his hair was bleached to a near-white blonde. It was a stark contrast to his usual dark brown and thus, to his disliking, he became Suga. If he was honest, it kind of grew on him. With a face that just SCREAMED sweetness – of course that’s a part of the joke, he hardly could be deemed approachable – his identity underground was concealed behind the ironic nameplate bestowed upon him.

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ARizzA94 #1
Chapter 7: Yo, you need to get your together and update!!! I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS NEXT STOP SLACKING DAMN IT!!!
XergaB20
#2
Chapter 7: PLEASE DON'T WAIT FOREVER TO UPLOAD MORE! CAUSE NOW I'M NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO WAIT. AHHH!
chelseajay
#3
Chapter 7: OMG I AM GUSHING!!! THEY KISSED. ING FINALLY. I AM SO. YESSS. THANK GOODNESS.
Beenzy #4
Update soon please ><
XergaB20
#5
Chapter 6: I love this! Really! I LOVE IT! I need more. AH!
chelseajay
#6
Chapter 6: Awww that was so cuteee.
Beenzy #7
Chapter 5: I love this YoungjaexYoongi ^^
If anyone knows another story please tell me .. Thank you
chelseajay
#8
Chapter 5: Hahahaha, Yoongi is in such denial. So is Youngjae. They just need to let it happen. Fall in love.
chelseajay
#9
Chapter 4: Youngjae your thirst is showing. Yoongi you're doing the thing Jackson does to Namjoon and you don't even know it.
chelseajay
#10
Chapter 3: I already see Youngjae's crush brewing underneath all that Hater-aid.

While that may be elementary my dear, didn't your mother teach you that it's always the ones you hate the most that you fall for the fastest? So jokes on you, haha.

I AM SO STOKED FOR THIS.