Ƹ̴Ӂ̴Ʒ Butterfly

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There won’t be a member name and I won’t mention any kpop group in this post. I just wrote something because I wanted to and I felt inspired (INFIRES?!) . I don’t know if I should write “I hope you like it” or “Let me know what you think” as I usually do. I just hope you will always live your lives in the best way and without regrets. Remember guys, life is just one and you always have to live it as you want. Don’t ever think you are not enough for someone or for something. You are unique and every single human being is important and every single person has to be proud of himself. 

Nothing lasts forever,
You only live once
So live your life, not any other’s lives
Take chances and never regret, never
Never be late to do what you wanna do right now
Because at one point of someday, everything you did
Would be exactly what you will be 

“BTS – O!RUL8,2? intro”

Foreword

As I entered the room I was almost afraid to brake that silent that was protecting you. The room was the same of some months ago, the day I had dinner on that white dining room table you proudly said to have bought at an unbelievable price. I looked around, the white kitchen was complete new and you were right, it was marvelous under the sunlight that filtered from those big windows. It was big and you could have done every kind of dishes you wished. Something was out of place and I closed my eyes, imagining you moving inside that room, messing up everything to look for what you needed.
My steps seemed louder than usual and I could hear my breath fighting to stay regular and quite. My heart was beating so fast, my head was going to explode due to the noise of the silence and I wanted to hear your voice calling me to let me calm down.
I made another step and I saw you. They were right, you were beautiful in that creamy dress, your body seemed amazing surrounded of white and that color made your already shining face even more bright. It seemed the sun was fighting to be able to kiss you and I could understand that; I bet every single thing in this world wanted to kiss you and protect you from every bad thing. Every living thing wanted to cover your eyes from the evil side of the world. You were too pure to let your soul be soiled from those things. It wasn’t important to know the bad side of the world because you were too bright and good and you had always to stay like that.
On your lips there was a beautiful smile and I thanked God, I thanked Him for getting me met a human being with that kind of smile. Your laugh had the power of light up my heart, even when I was too sad too being able to smile your simple presence made me think that life was to precious to be wasted having sad moments and it was worth living.
Your words, your strength to live, your happiness, always gave me the strength to stand up and fight my own problems. Your tiny hands always held mine even when I was the one supposed to protect you from that difficult world you had to live in.
I took another step and I was that near to touch that white piece of fabric that framed your body. Your face had a light make up on and I smiled remembering your birthday party of two years ago; where you were wearing a short red dress and your hair was all classy and up high, you were like a princess and I felt I was the luckiest person ever, just because I was able to being there with you and for you. That night my dress was blue and we both knew these two colors weren’t suppose to stay together, they were so different. You took my hand, walking on the dance floor and you danced with me, not caring of anyone around you. You smiled to me and we moved our body not really listening to the music; we just danced as we wanted and we had fun, a lot of fun. 
God, I wished I could go back to that day. You were beautiful and your mind was free from every kind of worry you had. 
I remembered that day because today your face was the same. It was relaxed and you were free from every kind of thing made your heart suffer. I was ecstatic seeing how your body was finally relaxed. 
A tear lined my cheek, it was so hot and hurtful; I didn’t want to let you see this side of me, not today. I wanted to smile for you, I wanted to let you know that I will be fine, I will be OK since you will be always next to me.

I bend down, but I was scared. 
No, I wasn’t scared of you, but I was slowly realizing I wouldn’t be able to see your bright eyes and I wouldn’t be able to see your smile anymore if not in my memory. 
I wouldn’t be able to listen to your cheering voice having fun of my passions and I wouldn’t be able to listen to your worried voice when you called me for an advice.
I couldn’t hold your hand walking around our city and I couldn’t go out to eat with you.
I was slowly realizing that a piece of my life left me. 
What would happen if I lose my memories of you? 

I kissed your forehead and I gasped a bit feeling for the first time in a while your skin on mine. You were so cold and I wanted to hug you to warm your body. I looked at you, I really wanted to say a lot of things, but nothing came out. I took a step back taking from my pocket something we did together and I held that object feeling suddenly shy.
I held tight our thing and I walked toward you again giving you something to let you remember I loved you.
People greeted you, cried for you and I just went out to take a breath of air. I smiled and I laughed searching to cheer up everyone around me, because you were alright now. You were fine and you were beautiful.

When I walked back I looked at you smiling. Yes, that was the kind of reaction I wanted to show you.
I was sorry because I left you alone a lot of times, I was sorry because you could have felt alone and I wasn’t there most of the times, I was sorry because I couldn’t always be the one to say the words you wanted to hear. I was sorry because I let you kept a promise just to have something of you even after yourdeath. 
I was sorry because I was sure I did something to make you upset sometimes.
I promised that I would work hard to keep our promise, because I’d let that promise be my strength when I would feel to tired and hopeless.

I kissed your cheek and I smiled feeling your soft skin on mine. I loved kissing those cheeks. My voice was so low but I struggled to find the brave to say I love you. I left your house smiling because you were free and you were fine now and that was the most important thing.

God, you were beautiful. You were like a butterfly. Your life was short, but your colors gave a little bit of happiness to this sad world. You flied everywhere knowing that big world that gave you life. You grew up beautifully and you never lost your beauty.
 

Love you little butterfly.

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Chayma19 #1
Why would you do this to me?