Even if only in my dreams, even if only in my fanficts

Sometimes, I'm just wondering what is your sole motivation as an author to continue writing ffs here. Sometimes I feel very much demotivated, demoralised but then something sparked in me - Just why I've started writing here?
I just want to satisfy my own need, suyeol and suhan ffs are very much lacking in number. I adore these pair too much, it hurt that they are so underated. I will be happy if they were together ( suho with luhan or chanyeol), even only in my countless dreams, even only in my fanficts.
If I were to hope too much from my readers, then I would be in impending doom. ( I had already, but I guess I slowly recover). Having said that, I really appreciate my subscribers and readers no matter how small the number is.
MiraiFiquin
6 years ago
@sleepingprince You hit the right spot..negeri mn?
sleepingprince
6 years ago
@MiraiFiquin Wow you are a Msian too :) Selamat pagi . Sama la kita haha ^^
MiraiFiquin
6 years ago
@sleepingprince Slamat pagi...sy tua sikit dari awak umur 28...tapi org slalu ckp cam awal 20 gitu
sleepingprince
6 years ago
@MiraiFiquin You're most welcome :) I shall be the one thanking you instead. Btw if you dont mind , where are you from ? I'm from Msia and i'm 27
MiraiFiquin
6 years ago
@sleepingprince Hehe..sure, i'll drop there, tq
sleepingprince
6 years ago
@MiraiFiquin Thank you :) If you need some motivation or anything to be inspire do check out my blogs and my story . I wrote poems in there ^^
MiraiFiquin
6 years ago
@sleepingprince Inspiring'..
sleepingprince
6 years ago
I write because I wanted to share my words and my work to motivate people and inspire them but I mainly write for the fun of writing so I don't really get too pressured . It's also a way for me to express myself and be more creative :)
aee_eusebio
6 years ago
@Aszkjm hopeless writer should be united like us haha (or weird author, I don't mind with that name) XD
MiraiFiquin
6 years ago
@aee_eusebio Omg, same like me. I dunno why I just love to be unnecessarily weird ( not that weird thou)..yeah, I also love to write the most desirable scenarios for them to me..hehe..and just likes you, bcox of lesser number reader, I hardly get meaningful comment..so fully understand you
aee_eusebio
6 years ago
I like crackships which only few who ships them with me. So, to satisfy my hunger about them, I write the most desirable scenario for them for me (lol what am I talking about). But aside from that, I love writing fiction and reading the long comments as feedback (although I rarely receive them /sobs)
MiraiFiquin
6 years ago
@kireitenshi Ah, almost the same likes mine. I really want suho and luhan to be together although luhan already departed from the group.
[deactivated] 6 years ago
not really much of a writer, just started my first fic about a month ago. what prompted me to write? i wad just so bitter over the ending/2nd half of the drama i'm writing about. LOL... i wanted my ship to have a happy ending, even if the ship did not really sail in the drama.
MiraiFiquin
6 years ago
@ScarletArrow wonderful..besides ships, the hidden messages behind the stories is somehow motivate me to write, but unfortunately, my readers are less responsive...hehe, I don't mind thou..the most important thing is I already serve them something good to read!!!
Philosophies
6 years ago
Because people here are responsive to the hidden messages behind stories.

Most of the stories I have written have a beginning and an end, but there is almost always an unstated larger meaning behind it that goes far beyond the fic. I've indirectly or directly written about existentialism, mental illness awareness, the idea that the words one person says could completely change the lives of many, and in an upcoming series I'm going to be writing about the ideas of reincarnation, life after death, and forgiveness.

They're all huge, dark topics, and I absolutely love that the readers here engage in the story, think about the meanings behind it, and suggest their own thoughts. The responses that I get from readers are the reason I keep posting here.
MiraiFiquin
6 years ago
@venirose I think it's miracle suddenly you get it back..
pxmens
6 years ago
@Aszkjm Thank you. Haha. I lost the muse in writing no matter how strong I shipped people, but thank god it's back again. I'm currently collaborating on a story with a close friend of mine outside AFF.
MiraiFiquin
6 years ago
@venirose Ahh, just amazing, congratulation!!!. My motivation is because my love to the ships is strong...hehehe
pxmens
6 years ago
This is definitely not related to the ships, but rather to the motivation part.

Truth to be told, I stopped writing generally for about four years, hence I had to put all of my progressing stories on hold - which for me as a writer as well as someone who cherished their subscribers and readers. I finally finished a Kikwang fan fiction of mine this or last month after six years (mind that I was on hiatus for a long time in between). I got my motivation from a really old Taemin story I first wrote back then in 2011 -
which I reread this year in February. Thanks to that I was able to finish Kikwang fan fiction and now I continued to write on my Taeminzy story.
-hyphen-
6 years ago
I just write and I know no other site and I am here because of my favorite fic In the End I'll link it so you can read it as well and agree that it's great. And that's why I'm here, thanks to @PastelWolf88 's writing skills, that inspired me to write my very own fic (that turned out to be very bad, but I'm still proud of it because I wrote it and actually finished.

https://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/1034681/in-the-end-editing-comedy-schoollife-hunhan-hanhun-slightangst-topluhan-bottomsehun
^^My ultimate favorite fic. Much likely for really long time.
[deactivated] 6 years ago
I started writing here because I wanted to share my fics to a bigger audience. That is the reason why I post my fics on ao3 too. I'm also a big fan of thrillers and mysteries :) I started writing just because I liked sulay at that time lmao. Now it's all hunhan. Nowadays I think people read more topluhan fics but when I started I felt that nobody did XD
I wrote only very depressing things before fanfics. Some things I do not wish to recall.
MissMinew
6 years ago
@Aszkjm Ah, but that's better than headaches and stomachaches. I do drink tea, but not enough to get addicted to caffeine, haha.
MiraiFiquin
6 years ago
@MissMinew I'll bit restless if I didn't have any..huhu..one cup of coffee is enough for me, at least one cup. You didn't drink tea?
MissMinew
6 years ago
@Aszkjm I don't really know what it feels like as I don't drink coffee, but I have a feeling that if it affects you that much, it's on time you slowly cut down. ^^
MiraiFiquin
6 years ago
@MissMinew I got headache when I didn't have one. I come to that extend
MissMinew
6 years ago
@Aszkjm A lot of people do. (:
MiraiFiquin
6 years ago
@MissMinew I have caffeine addiction thou.
MissMinew
6 years ago
@Aszkjm Always seek help with medical issues, doesn't matter what they are. ^-^ I think the biggest setback with medication is that it can cause addiction (this is not only psychiatric drugs) and all medical research is made to optimize medical practice and treatment. ^^
MiraiFiquin
6 years ago
@MissMinew The main point is to SEEK HELP and expert attention. Seeking immediate expert attention is a vital part, before it become full blown and difficult to manage. Yes, definitely, the whole medicine thing is just complicated including the psychiatric. It depend on individual as well. Some illness just can not be completely cured, but can only be made more managable and to make it stable state. Relapse happen when patient default medication, external stressor and ect. As the disease progress, the medication will be added for some group, but the main aim of medicine,( I think still hold in psy) is to optimize medication and at the same time attempting to delay the use of medicine that has many side effect.
MissMinew
6 years ago
@Aszkjm Mmmh, I see what you're saying, but I think it's very complex. Sometimes diong what you really enjoy is used to change negative coping mechanisms - replacing negative coping mechanism such as self harm with more productive coping mechanisms such as writing. In those cases you can say that it is a part of therapy. It has nothing to do with medication, however. While I agree that medication often works together with therapy, it isn't always and that's okay too. Therapy cannot necessarily minimize medication either, that depends purely on the disorder. And not all therapy forms work with everything, I met my fair share of people in group therapy who learned that it wasn't for them (and for some disorders some therapy forms are not recommended - group therapy for eating disorders as an example).
Doing something you love is wonderful and it can help a lot, but sometimes it's just not possible and sometimes it's hard to even find something you genuinely enjoy. It's a lot more complex. ^-^ But I definitely agree with you that it's sad to see writers leave. (: