While he fell, in the midst of his anger and tears, he had an unsettling feeling in his gut; one day, he would stop falling altogether. However,  just before he could hit the ground, he'd stop and clearly see his feet dangling. Then, his vision would blur. How he wished he could look for a way to loosen that rope again.

Check the other story titled "Suicide Notebook." That's the edited version  

In which Kevin gets drunk and searches for Kiseop around the dorm, Hoon doesn't tolerate the 'wavy thing' being used at any time, AJ likes to 'borrow' Eli’s Red Bull but never returns it, Soohyun is just as immature as his dongsaengs though he denies so, Kiseop is a mama’s boy who thinks that his hair dye is killing his brain cells, Eli is the renowned pigeon we all know and love today, and Dongho is supposedly the most mature out of all of U-KISS and think