Do any of you guys go on Reddit?

If so, I have a TIFU story I need to rant about and I'm pissed. 

For those of you who don't know what Reddit is or what TIFU means, it stands for "Today I ed Up." So here it goes. 

I don't give a shiz if this is on the internet I don't. I don't care if it's on my blog I don't care if I'm letting strangers know about this, I am freakin' upset and I hate my teacher. I normally don't hate, I hate cussing, I hate bad-mouthing, I am not a negative person but today I'm sorry God but I have to let it all go okay because who can't be pissed off by not graduating? 

Okay so TODAY I AM A UP AND TODAY I ED UP. 

UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH. 

I'm not gradting by 3%. I GODDAMN need 3% more to pass my damn AP Econ class in order to graduate. We have mandatory classes during senior year you MUST pass in order to graduate. Government and Economics and BECAUSE I'm A DAMN HIGH ACHIEVER I took AP and ED UP my senior year. 

GOddamn teacher won't raise my grade 3% more to get a D and pass and graduate with my senior class. 

I'm at a 57%, I was fighting to turn in late work and apologizing for pushing this on him, I DESERVE TO GRADUATE and he won't raise it so I'm sitting here in a classroom that's not mine wandering around the school in complete loss of hope ing hating the world and that damn teacher who I actually thought was a nice guy and everyone hated BUT NO I ING HATE HIM FOR DOING THIS TO ME. HE"S RUINING MY SUMMER, MY LIFE PLAN, MY FREAKIN' ENJOYMENT and just this this all. I know it's my fault for procrastinating on that class but IT'S ONLY HALF A SEMESTER I had other AP ing classes to worry about. I took 7 AP Exams with 7 AP classes and passed them THE I CAN'T GRADUATE ING ERS?!?!? Because of ONE class by THREE PERCENT HOLY MY BRAIN'S ABOUT TO EXPLODE FROM THIS ANNOUNCEMENT. I did well in my other classes, ing proud actually, and JUST THAT DAMN TEACHER MAN I gave him a chance to have a nice student like me not to be cocky at all I swear but so many students bad mouth him everyday (now I know why) and I gave him a chance, make convo with him when I can, just find the best in him and THIS IS WHAT I GET IN RETURN ARE YOU ING SERIOUS . 

I'm hopeless. WHere am I. what the hell is this high school around me and what is my life. 

My friend paid my ticket for me for Grad Night (Graduationg night) where our whole senior graduating class gets to go to Six Flags from 7pm - 9am with other schools just riding rides all night/morning long. It's $100. 

Because of my guilt and knowing I don't deserve the dream and fun (no matter how ing badly I wanna go and I'm already allowed to but because the guilt in me I'm going to secretly ask if I can refund the ticket and give the $100 back to my friend. My friends will hate me for not going but I'm sorry I can't go to a Graduation Celebration when I'm not even graduating this man. 

I HATE ECONOMICS. I HATE MYSELF. THIS IS ALL MY FAULT AND I HAVE NO CHANCES AND THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR PROCRASTINATING. 

Well now what's the point of even going back to school (we have 1 more week left) because why, I'm not graduating, I'm coming back for summer school ing ugh. I swear I really don't deserve this, I work my off harder than most of the damn students who cheated their was towards their graduationg this is ing I hate this. 

I sound so horrible in this blog. I know to never wish to bring someone down, never bring down a person because you're upset. Don't wish an eternal of unhappiness on someone just because you're angry. Whatever the reason may be, the reason you're unhappy is personal. Don't bring people into your life randomly and torture them to. 

I already know why and morally to not hate, trust me I'm not an evil person, but I'm just pissed I'm sorry if I've startled or made anyone upset for whatever I've been saying up there I'm just... really really depressed.

If anyone can make me feel better please help. 

If not don't say anything mean or degrading, I'm not graduating what else are you going to do to me? 

I need a therapist. I'm seriously gonna go crazy these past few days when all my friends are hyped to graduate and I'm here like "Hi I'm the dumb asian girl who ed up her life yay." 

I'm going to disappoint my teachers too. Ones who can't wait to see me walk up that stage and take pictures with. It's so embarassing omg I hope to never run into them during summer school because the embarassment. 

I hate this... why... just why...