I will be back very soon. Exam is finally going to end. Phew. Aaaaaand, the holidays are coming too! Hallelujah! I'm going to use those two weeks to read, read, and read more, and to write, write and write. I'm not going to plan now what day I will be doing what, since that usually doesn't work for me, I will be spontaneous C: I won't write when I don't have the inspiration of course, since that will result in badly written and cliche, stupid stories. I'm serious, I tried it before and I nearly wanted to create a new identity. Hah yeah. So anyway, I'll be doing my best to write since I shouldn't let the opportunity go to waste. And lately I've been thinking of what to be when I grow up. There are so many choices, but you can only choose one before you select the university of your choice. 

This is obviously and important matter, and since I'm still young, I have time to think it through. When I was younger I had dreamed of being a singer and a dancer. I think I had that dream for like, six years? I used to perform often for school events like Teacher's Day and such, and I enjoyed performing. It gave me a warm feeling inside somehow. But then, not everyone can be a singer or a dancer. You need to be talented to be able to succeed. And I think I'm not fit for this career. Now that I'm older and I can think rationally -well more than before anyway- that dream of mine sounded distant and out of reach for me. I'm not sure about that dream anymore. I still enjoy singing and dancing though, maybe that can just be a hobby. 

I like reading a lot, and I've started to write a year ago. I find writing a way of escape. A way to voice out your inner thoughts, your locked up emotions. It's easier to write it out than to speak it. And I like to imagine things, it makes things more amusing. I have been thinking of studying English and pursuing a writing career and hopefully publish a few good novels. It sounds possible to me. Better than the dream of being a celebrity, right? But what if I won't be successful if I become an author? What if no one liked my books and I had to find a different job to survive? I can't help but think that. My father had said that if I am not so sure of what to do next time, I should take a degree that can fit into any career category, like for example, law. My parents had wanted me to become a lawyer, but I wasn't interested.

Well, not until I did a little research and found out that there are many types of lawyers. The one that kind of caught my eye was the legal officer. I think that is the only interesting out of the others. But that's only my opinion. Taking law doesn't sound that bad, I suppose. Being a fashion designer came across my mind a few times too. Not that I know how to sew currently, or am making any outfits for myself. But it sounds exciting, designing an outfit and making it real. But of course that requires creativity, same like writing. There are just so many careers out there to choose from, and I don't even know where to start. Some people are just lucky that from young they are already sure of what they will be doing for a living. That's because they have distinctive talents that aren't supposed to go to waste. So it's already decided for them. Why waste the talent, right? 

Hah. Well, I don't know. There is still lots of time, so I can think it through very carefully. MY father had told me to follow my heart. Do something I like to do, instead of doing what other people wants me to do. I have my own life to live. He said he'll support me, whatever decision I make. I'm happy he understands :) 

Are there any of you out there who also can't decide?