I'll be there, they said. I'll be by your side when you need me. Because friends are for lifetime.

I'm still waiting for you, you know? I'm still wondering what came to be of my "friend" that was supposed to be by my side whenever I needed her. 

I've always known that I'll be there for you (I've proved it, didn't I?) if you needed me, because that's what friends do. Be it the birthday party of your nice that you didn't want to attent or a bad break up. Even if I was no good with comforting words, you would still have a shoulder to lean on or laugh of with, someone that would bring you tissues or just more beer; to tell you you're not that ugly after crying and that would carry your sorry self back in one piece  if you ever needed it. 

You're the one who said "my brother's kid doesn't excite me; but think I'll be it when you get your childs, because I'll be their goodmother" 

You're the one who was supposed to stay by my side when I needed you the most. 

But what did you do. "Oh, that's bad. I'm busy, bye"

How many times have I called you? how many times have I mocking messaged you like we used to? How many times have you answered? Have you ever read my messages?

I'm having a hard time, you know? And I did wonder if you were having a hard time too? that's why didn't stop trying; because you might just need me as I needed you. But then you mocke/joke with your other friends on FB. I write to you and you ignore me but answer to their posts right away. What? I'm not good enough to be your friend anymore?

you.

Well, you did make it clear that you wanted "to grow up" when you decided anime and kpop was for stupid teens. They say friends decide to stant their friends oddities. I guess you just decided you wouldn't be doing it. 

But I don't regret being friends with you. You gave me good things. Kpop, for example. I would have never gotten into this if not for you; and there are just many people I came to know thanks to kpop. Such an irony it's the reason you decided not to be friends anymore. 

So goodbye to you. You might not ever read this letter, but I just wish the best for you. Your new friends, don't push them away. Someday, they will be your only support; you'll need them, and probably then you'll understand how much I need you now. 

Goodbye.